Janine

Hello my friends, good morning Molly......Yesterday started out with so much promise. It was a small moment of peace in a very turbulant holiday season. It gave me some hope that I would be able to...

Well, we lost power again last night and I have not been a happy girl about it. You'd have thought that a million people without power 2 weeks before xmas would have filled our quota, but no.Oh...

I'm exhausted MidgetI shouldn't be but I am. Miss P has become Christopher's girl over the last week or so and I think that's probably a good thing. The rest of the critters have always pretty much...

I'm so angry Midget........I'm just mad and angry and sad and I cried a lot today. I don't seem to be able to find any peace. Just pieces of the day when I can fuction and other pieces when I...

Hello Molly.....Today was ok. I had to work really hard and I think I helped a lot of kids with the math. I was tired and worn out but not in a bad way. I guess I'm going to have to keep reminding...

Oh Molly,I keep waiting for it to get easier that you're gone and it doesn't. I miss you so much it hurts Sweetface. I don't know how to be happy without you. I won't let Christopher get rid of...

Ok, so the year's going to end. I'm good with that. But I started thinking/reflecting this morning over all that has happened and I think it's a good idea to get it all down. Because hey, I really...

Hello my beloved. My baby girl, my Molly........Two weeks ago tonight..... now, you looked at me and woofed a cry. Laying next to me on the sofa. Wrapped up in warm, clean, snuggly bath towels. ...

Ok it's Saturday............I was awake at 4:00am (good thing too because school starts Tues and I have to go back to the pre-dawn wake up) and I don't want to crawl in a hole and die. I think I'm...

ARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!God hates me I swear! I've left the house exactly three times since Molly died. To go to Mom's on Christmas because Christopher couldn't (big mistake, HUGE MISTAKE). ...

Today has been a real ride Molly. Sobbing for you this morning, pushing my own panic buttons over a new member this afternoon and tired and a little dispirited this evening. I keep thinking, please...

So it begins. Christopher just told me that I "need to start communicating with the world". Molly wasn't a "human being" so she gets a pretty short window for grieving. Well, screw him. There are...

Good night my best girl.I love you, I miss you, I cried for you a lot today.I wish I could tell you that I was getting better but I'm not. I don't want to talk to people. I just don't know what to...

Well, I guess that a birthday is a good time to reflect on your life and maybe light a little candle (emotionally speaking) on a cupcake just because. Christopher's sick, Molly's gone and yesterday...

So........... thanks to my mother for reminding me that when it comes to her, I can't ever let my guard down, can't ever say exactly how I feel, can't ever trust that she'd be able to just let me...