Janine

I was passing through the laundry room on my way to the garage and had left the door open (from the laundry into the house) and it suddenly occurred to me that Molly loved to sneak through any little...

I don't understand why I just come home after work and collapse.....I want to know why, when I make a list of things I need to do..... I don't.I wish missing Molly didn't occupy so much of my life. ...

I want Molly.I just want Molly.I'm tired of "being ok" when I'm not. I'm tired of going on like I will go on.Of pretending anything else is as important as she is.I'm tired of trying to invest...

The grades are in.......I am utterly exhausted and this week feels like a month. I've been doing paperwork and teaching virtually every minute since Monday. Tues. night I went to sleep about...

No school today because of an inservice (no kids, all teachers) which I do not have to attend because I am not under contract. As always, I think that's a good thing. I have this tendency to call...

I am lost and bewildered. I go from strong and alright one moment, to crushed and broken the next, to enraged and furious in the moment after that. I ache for Molly and I hate everything that...

AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!Can I be here and still move forward "out there"?Can I find balance in an off-kilter world where everything around me seems forever to be sliding just out of the picture?...

I really wish trust was a switch in my head instead of a place in my heart.........As much as I'm grateful for this site and these people and the support and understanding I've found here, I almost...

Hello Sweetface.......I still miss you terribly and there are times when breathing takes everything I have. I still cry in Bear's arms and find new ways to grieve you every day. But I am also...

So I went downstairs and told my husband how I felt (see last night's journal) and it was ok. I would be more worried about the drinking except he drinks so rarely and it has never effected his...

This has been a rather bizarre day. Not necessarily good or bad, but certainly bizarre.I woke up feeling better than yesterday which was a gift because Friday had been crappy and I woke up Sat with a...

I woke up at 3:30 this morning fighting a migraine. I lost. So I've been flat-out most of the day and only now am able to actually focus on something without pain. But I'm also exhausted. I feel...

ARRRRRRGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!HOW CAN HUMANS BE SO CRAPPY TO EACH OTHER???You would think, as educators, dealing with hormonal and crazed adolescents would make it all the more important for us to be...

Today......well, today I've just been pissed off that you're gone.The hole inside me isn't shrinking. The great big empty that is now part of the life I live every day isn't subsiding, or getting...

I miss you Midget.That's all and that's everything. I miss you.Today I went to the school I was working in while you were hurt and broken and then.... gone.Becki asked about you, while I was in...