Ellocin

It's really nasty out, weather wise.  It was snowing earlier but changed to rain or maybe freezing rain now.  I have to leave in less then an hour to walk to my appointment with my psychiatrist and...

just finished prepping a bunch of penny's for painting...my experimental magnet making experience....will have to wait at least a day or two to apply paint...hmm...wonder how this whole process will...

Had another bad night last night.  Well, I don't remember it being bad but I woke up with cuts from my shoulder straight down my arm to my wrist.  It hurts.  Nothing I can do about it though. ...

oh my what a day, i fell asleep at around 4:30am on the living room couch.  I accidently unplugged my cable box yesterday and when I plugged it back in it won't work and I felt like watching tv...

so i just finally worked up the nerve to do a practice call with the crisis line...been trying to for a week or so now.  See I used to call them all the time and then things got better so I...

It's really snowing lots out there today.  I went for a walk in it.  Sadly alcohol was my motivator...but at least I did the walking.  I wanted to go to the liquor store before it closed because I...

I don't belong anywhere, I don't fit in... I went out to see my new great step-niece Hannah and all the rest of my family tonight.  For once I actually decided to put an effort into how I looked...

i don't think i'm gonna write much...because it's late and for once i'm actually tired... i am back in the city and been keeping busy and getting behind on emails...got back yesterday but after my...

They were in there at the hospital at 5:45am and at 11am the hospital sent him home again.  I'm not sure of the reason this time but this is really starting to make me mad.  He's now scheduled for...

I ate way too much...probably ate more today then i've eaten in the past week total...ugghhh...not such a great feeling.  I do admit I was undereating big time...but today I completely pigged.  ...

My BIL and sister were at the hospital early this morning (6:30am ish) and waiting for his surgery.  It ended up getting bumped a couple times and then at noon they decided to send him home and try...

Mmmm....today is Pancake Tuesday and the pancakes are being made as I write this.   I'm not feeling quite as bad as I was, but not quite as good either.  I do think that I will go on the treadmill...

the good news is I'm starting to feel a "little" bit sleepy... the bad news is I think my moods are shifting and I feel like I'm gonna crash...gonna go take my celexa and try to sleep...hopefully...

Another night and a bunch of happy energy.  I did 1 hour on the treadmil earlier to try and tire myself out...that backfired.  I have more energy...but mom was starting to freak because that was a...

I'm at my parents now....just waiting for supper...but anxious about it too.  My appetite has been really low lately (which I'm not complaining about), so I've been forcing myself to eat.  I'm...