Ellocin

Well...oddly enough...and I'm not complaing...I'm not feeling the after-effects (or is it affects?) nearly so bad as I expected.  I feel very mildly nauseas and mildly headachy and a lot like going...

OMG I been drinking way way way too much tonight...i think I started at 8pm (around there) and it's almost 5:30am and I haven't really stopped....except for a little spilled water....and a little...

nearly 4am and i haven't slept yet...depression group was rough....really rough...i came home wanting to kill myself...well...those were the thoughts in my head...they're not so much there now.  It...

my online appointment....she never showed up... :( i'm sure something came up and she has a good reason...but that is what I don't like about online...you don't know until you find them online...

Feeling extremely edgy today.  Woke up very sedated from my oxazepam...usually I wake up really well from it.  I had to cancel one of todays appoitments...I just knew I couldn't get there.  Am...

I may have shared this before...but I think it's time to again...or..well...it's good to be reminded of some of these things sometimes  Stress Management A lecturer, when explaining stress...

i'm feeling pretty crummy at the moment...but i did make it to that appoitnment...and it was as expected.  We've stopped the Manerix...and I have to go med-free for a week...and next week will start...

a broken 5 hours of sleep...give or take.  Another hour and I need to drag myself to my appointment...somehow.  I need to get a grip...but no will left to bother trying.  Lord I need a miracle to...

it's after 4am and i haven't slept yet...i feel tired but not anymore so then i have been all day...i feel i could stay up another 12 hours if i had to...i don't want to...and i probably won't...but...

if i had the energy i'd give up *cries* 

i don't know how i feel really...i feel depressed but aggitated...i've only been able to leave my bed once today...that was to use the washroom and get a fresh glass of water...which i haven't even...

i'm fucken trapped...i can't fucken live and i can't fucken diei just want off this planet...i want off this fucken life i don't fucken care how just somehow....something needs to give and...

i od'd last night before bed...nothing major...i guess you could call it a controlled od...is there such a thing?  All it did was give me some weird dreams...a lot of them had to do with buildings...

positives today....sutures are out, amazing how much better that feels...i thought the itchy was just the cuts healing...noo....it was actually the sutures uhmm.....that's the only positive i can...

i think they're right about the meds....i don't know if it's possible to tell that soon...but i woke up fine and shortly after taking my dose the anxiety started...and it's so f*cken intense.  I...