Feeling extremely edgy today.  Woke up very sedated from my oxazepam...usually I wake up really well from it.  I had to cancel one of todays appoitments...I just knew I couldn't get there.  Am planning on going to depression group tonight but I"m afraid it might be cancelled and no one has told me.  I'll still go and see though...probably.  I did manage to get my shower...I needed it.  I was starting to look horrid.  Why does something so simple as taking a shower have to be such a chore?  It feels good when you're there.  I keep thinking i hear people in our apartment or knocking on the door...but I've checked...there's no one.  Just me.  I'm having lots of issues with anxiety today...I've ended up taking a couple clonazepam.  I don't know if I'm suppose to use the clonazepam or the ativan for anxiety...but whatever the case I decided I have a larger supply of clonazepam and it stays in the system longer so probably that's the one to go with.  I don't know why the anxiety so bad today.  It was suppose to be from the Manerix and that's done and the decrease stopped the anxiety...and there's not suppose to be any withdrawal side effects from this medication.  I'm confused.  I'll get through today....but if it's still an issue tomorrow I will call my psychiatrist.  I also see my regular doctor tomorrow...to get a back, neck, shoulder assessment so I can start physiotherapy.  I know it's not all muscular...some of it is spinal..but mostly I think it's muscular.  And this darn anxiety is doing NOTHING to help it.  I feel pretzeled today with it...just can't untense my shoulders and neck area.  Can't seem to relax.  Anyway...my online appointment is soon so I'm going to go.