my online appointment....she never showed up... :( i'm sure something came up and she has a good reason...but that is what I don't like about online...you don't know until you find them online again.  I waited 1 hour past the time...but I need to start getting ready for depression group. Feeling almost too depressed to go...feel like I'm gonna get there and no one will be there...but these are feelings and I need to get out.  It'll be good for me.  But....I DON'T WANT TO!!!  There I said it...I don't want to...but I'm going to do it anyway...means I actually am showered and all.  If I put the energy into looking half presentable I have to actually present myself somewhere.  So...that said...I should get off here and get outta my pj's and put on some clothes and go.  But why is it oh so hard?!?