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okay...wasn't able to do all my bloodwork today.  Apparently when the form says you need to have a test done at 8am it means be there at 7:15am so you have time to wait, wait, wait, get registered...

Physio went well.  She respected the fact that I'm dealing with a lot of physical symptoms right now from the meds (both withdrawing and starting new ones).  Kept it pretty basic today with a few...

Appt yesterday with psychiatry went good.  She said it's possible that I am withdrawing from the oxazepam and if I want to I could taper it instead...but she also said I'm probably over the peak for...

think i need toothpicks to prop open my eyes today...didn't fall asleep until about 9am...and been just getting broken sleep.  Should be enough by now though...it's 1pm.  Gotta get ready to see...

had an interesting thought when i was attempting to sleep and had to log in and check something...sure enough it makes sense.  When I was in the hospital they recommended I stop taking the...

It's a little after 3am...I got up so early yesterday that I crashed too early in the evening last night and was awake again shortly before midnight.  Planning on heading to bed again soon...

Oh my goodness my arm is soooooo itchy, so glad this stitches come out today and then no more...I am NOT doing that to myself again.  I don't do well with anything itchy.  Back still achy but I...

Epps...my back and my heartburn both trying to drive me nutty but I'm not gonna let it get me down...could be so much worse.  Feeling pretty good despite not being able to do much today.  That's...

I thought this was funny (so did my mom)....  A man and woman had been married for more than 60 years.  They had shared everything. They had talked about everything. They had kept no secrets...

You know, I am actually feeling fairly good tonight despite things.  Yeah I still feel the cloud of depression looming over me and the physical aches and pains but that aside I actually feel pretty...

6:45pm.  Back is in pain still but since it's snow storming and I did as much as I could handle putting away the Christmas decorations...half done probably...I decided to watch a movie.  I FINALLY...

Almost 4am but I am winding down for bed.  Since my last entry I managed to sleep a few hours in the morning and woke up around noon or 1pm...still upset but manageable.  Forced myself to eat some...

Almost 5am and I'm wide awake, partially because I slept most of the evening, which I mentioned previously...and partially because I'm really mad, upset, hurt...I don't even know the right word. Was...

My doctors appointment went well...but now I have a lot of bloodwork and different tests to get done...on Monday I have to make an appointment at another medical centre to have an EKG done.  Also if...

Trying to think positive but really not doing well at that at all.  I'm in so much pain physically now and mentally I can't get my mind to shut off because of all the worries of the physical crap. ...