You know, I am actually feeling fairly good tonight despite things.  Yeah I still feel the cloud of depression looming over me and the physical aches and pains but that aside I actually feel pretty good.  I went to my first church service in quite awhile (yeah it was on Second Life) but it's better then nothing.  I was only half into it but it was about discouragement and it was helpful to be there.  This is the first time in months that I actually have felt good about going to a service on there...most of the time I get so aggitated and edgy and flip out.  It was with my friends and yes even those who even earlier today I wasn't sure if I wanted to even forgive.  But I did....with God's help.  I'm still hurting, but I'm moving on.  The things that were done were done by humans and we all make mistakes and on top of that I'm a little extra sensitive and emotional right now.  That's what it is, it's no reason for me to hold grudges...besides if they can forgive me, and beyond that, if God can forgive me for everything I do that hurts Him...then I can forgive (with His help) those who have hurt me.  Still gotta work on the forgiving myself thing...but with His help I'll be able to do that to.  Anyway...it's a little past midnight here and I want to try to get some sleep during some normal NIGHT hours for a change *fingers crossed* so I'm going to go.  Just thought it was about time I write an entry with a happy face for a change.