gothicmelody666

i have so much to say and so much to write but i cant always put my feelings and expressions into words. i cant really understand whats wrong with me but i know why and i wish i knew nothing at all....

im happy that i have Mike back in my arms. im thankful everyday, and im proud of myself for being faithful this time around. i will never lie or cheat again and thats a promise!everything is all good

im so tired of not having any friends.i start to think that everybody hates me or something. im paranoid so i think they spread rumors about me and they just front when i come around or when they...

my moms work just pulled random drug tests and some of the people may not pass!!! the boss lady says she wants me to come in and work for a couple of days before i actually start so ill know if i...

in order to be a better partner i have to care about myself first.  i have been faithful and honest so i guess thats a very good start for now but i feel that they are only empty words untill i can...

i think that if i want to be happy, i need to forget about the past. if only i could have my memory erased. i need something to do that will help keep my mind on the right path. its hard to do now...

ive been gradually throwing clothes away as i do laundry but im so indecicive that i think i might ware whatever i have for some important place, but in reality, where do i go? i hate to leave my...

ive put in so many apps. online but NOBODY called me back so i finally gave in and applied at my moms thrift store. ill more than likey get the job when its avaislable because my mom is a manager and...

Ive coiled myself back to a place where i dont wanna be,running from what life really means.beyond my utopia are remose and lies, the odiums of my lifes disguise. whats left of my life, i dont...

I havent been on here in a long time and i look back on some old entries and one said that i wasnt going to get with this drummer kidd and i did, but i guess thats just me. always going the other...

ive been staying with mike and we got along most of the time but the rest of it was just fighting. same shit but a different day. i love him so much and i dont ever want to let him go but i cant take...

Ive been thinkin alot about my ex-boyfriend mike. He loves me more than anything in this world and i dont want to hurt him by gettin with the drummer kidd. Im still madly inlove with him as well, but...

Now that i think about it....im pretty happy about going to Drummer Kidds house. he just bought it so im sure theres not gonna be anything to do except for listening to the guys rock out. i hope...

Today mike came over and told me he had did meth and i was so pissed off. he used to be addicted to that shit and i took him into my moms house, pretty much with out her permission, but i helped him...

mike is such a dick. he holds shit over my head that has has been done forgiven and he makes me feel guilty for everything i do. i have to tell him everything i do and who i hang out with because if...