gothicmelody666

so ive been goin to the bar and i finally got a liqour licenes so i can work up there as a waiter if i want to, but i have to work April 26 cuz i have to serve shots for the Jager Girls, they cant...

Ok, so its been a while and not alot has happend. I dyed my hair yesterday my natural color(brown) and then i went out to my sisters bar (www.thepiglive.com) and wacthed some bands play for a battle...

i cut myself today. i was just so fuckin pissed and i didnt know how to control myself. its like She came out.... ive never really talked about it before but i think i have another side to me. Her...

so ive been goin to the bar and i finally got a liqour licenes so i can work up there as a waiter if i want to, but i have to work April 26 cuz i have to serve shots for the Jager Girls, they cant...

Ok, so its been a while and not alot has happend. I dyed my hair yesterday my natural color(brown) and then i went out to my sisters bar (www.thepiglive.com) and wacthed some bands play for a battle...

i cut myself today. i was just so fuckin pissed and i didnt know how to control myself. its like She came out.... ive never really talked about it before but i think i have another side to me. Her...

more than anything i wanna cut right now... these stupid fights are killing me. mike is so depressed and i cant say anything to him without him getting defencive. i dont know what to do anymore. i...

http://s72.photobucket.com/albums/i172/maryjane420420420/kinky%20stuff/?action=view&current=81c0392c.pbrmusic, mind and soul.

I HATE EVERYTHING!  THATS NOT MINE.  

I still havent cleaned anything really. all ive done is throw away some pens that didnt work anymore, BTW i still have about 50 more. im a pack rat and im not scared to admit it. my mom is too so i...

im not into the blood and guts so much anymore. i still love blood and i will continue to do so but i just dont need the self destructive images triggering me anymore. for example bad car wrecks,...

i have so much to say and so much to write but i cant always put my feelings and expressions into words. i cant really understand whats wrong with me but i know why and i wish i knew nothing at all....

im happy that i have Mike back in my arms. im thankful everyday, and im proud of myself for being faithful this time around. i will never lie or cheat again and thats a promise!everything is all good

im so tired of not having any friends.i start to think that everybody hates me or something. im paranoid so i think they spread rumors about me and they just front when i come around or when they...

my moms work just pulled random drug tests and some of the people may not pass!!! the boss lady says she wants me to come in and work for a couple of days before i actually start so ill know if i...