Ive been thinkin alot about my ex-boyfriend mike. He loves me more than anything in this world and i dont want to hurt him by gettin with the drummer kidd. Im still madly inlove with him as well, but the only thing is, I know that theres no way in hell that we could ever be happy together again. we fight all the time about things that have been forgiven and hes moving in 6 months. i dont want to fall inlove with him all over again when hes moving. that opens up a whole new door of hurt and i dont want to go through that dreadfullness again. i cant stand to be without him but when were together, all i wanna do is leave because something gets brought up that starts a fight. i dont know what to do. i like the drummer kidd ALOT, but is he worth throwing love away?hes a great guy and hes so hot and i dont want to hurt his feelings because ive already told him how i felt which i think was way too early because now theres for sure gonna be a relationship between us. like i said before, i dont want to break mikes heart again and i dont want to lose him for ever. i wish the was a way to just not have feelings for pain. it hurts so bad being inlove and knowing that there could never be anything between you again. im gonna miss him so much and i hope he at least will talk to me on myspace...lol..well its almost 4:20 and i want to eat some cherries so piece out my niggs!!!!                               <3 Mary Jane