gothicmelody666

It's been some years since ive been on here and i have way too much to talk about and too little time. I have insomnia and its after 4am but right now i feel like i could crash at any minute.In the...

its been 7 months since  my last update and i have yet to quit smoking. im not sure if ill ever stop smoking. i still smoke 1 pack a day and i hack my lungs up pretty much every single morning. i...

I decided this today when i realized ive been smoking for 12 years and im only 20 years old. I know ill end up with cancer if i dont stop, so im making a plan to stop on September 23, 2009. I hope I...

We are over at last. We are no more. I am free from verbal conflit and I am free of shame.No more regrets.Nothing left to ingest.We are over at last.  

Alot has happened in the last year. Ive been working at the bar for over a year now! I also have a second job working with Dave's (soundman at the bar) wife sorting through car parts ad correcting...

ok so its June and i still dont have a job. ive put n applications online but my b/f says its not good enough but any time you go to a store and ask for an app. they tell you 'do it online'. but...

ok so its June and i still dont have a job. ive put n applications online but my b/f says its not good enough but any time you go to a store and ask for an app. they tell you 'do it online'. but...

so ive been goin to the bar and i finally got a liqour licenes so i can work up there as a waiter if i want to, but i have to work April 26 cuz i have to serve shots for the Jager Girls, they cant...

Ok, so its been a while and not alot has happend. I dyed my hair yesterday my natural color(brown) and then i went out to my sisters bar (www.thepiglive.com) and wacthed some bands play for a battle...

i cut myself today. i was just so fuckin pissed and i didnt know how to control myself. its like She came out.... ive never really talked about it before but i think i have another side to me. Her...

more than anything i wanna cut right now... these stupid fights are killing me. mike is so depressed and i cant say anything to him without him getting defencive. i dont know what to do anymore. i...

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I HATE EVERYTHING!  THATS NOT MINE.  

I still havent cleaned anything really. all ive done is throw away some pens that didnt work anymore, BTW i still have about 50 more. im a pack rat and im not scared to admit it. my mom is too so i...

im not into the blood and guts so much anymore. i still love blood and i will continue to do so but i just dont need the self destructive images triggering me anymore. for example bad car wrecks,...