gothicmelody666

in order to be a better partner i have to care about myself first.  i have been faithful and honest so i guess thats a very good start for now but i feel that they are only empty words untill i can...

i think that if i want to be happy, i need to forget about the past. if only i could have my memory erased. i need something to do that will help keep my mind on the right path. its hard to do now...

ive been gradually throwing clothes away as i do laundry but im so indecicive that i think i might ware whatever i have for some important place, but in reality, where do i go? i hate to leave my...

ive put in so many apps. online but NOBODY called me back so i finally gave in and applied at my moms thrift store. ill more than likey get the job when its avaislable because my mom is a manager and...

Ive coiled myself back to a place where i dont wanna be,running from what life really means.beyond my utopia are remose and lies, the odiums of my lifes disguise. whats left of my life, i dont...

I havent been on here in a long time and i look back on some old entries and one said that i wasnt going to get with this drummer kidd and i did, but i guess thats just me. always going the other...

Eric and I have been having our differences lately but this morning when I woke up I felt like he was being sneaky. Being a woman, after he went to bed, I checked his messages. I found a couple...

Long story short, I woke up at 5pm. Eric was gone and I was in a shitty mood all day. [Here's the venting part]I hate waking up past 3. I fell like shit if I do. It pisses me off and the fact that...

So, I guess I've been writing in this damn journal for like a week now. It hasn't helped me at being happy. It just gives me room to vent or bitch about the things I can't change. I guess it's a...

I barely got any sleep last night, or today i guess. Since we had to set the clocks forward, I went to sleep at 6am this morning rather than 5am and I got woke up around noon because of the boys and...

I know that every relationship can't be exactly perfect but I thought my friends, Kenny and Brittany, would be together forever. That all ended today when Brittany got a message from the some bitch...

I don't remember waking up today, but I do know I got some wake up sex! That pretty much set the mood for the day. I got some pretty good news in the mail today. I passed my GED test so I am now an...

Today I woke up alone as usual. Well, my kitty cat Zanny woke me up. Eric was in the boys' room playing the xbox. For once I wish he would just come in and lay with me and kiss me and touch me but...

My dad took me to walmart and the mall today. I got 3 pairs of shoes, a belt and a batman bag. It was nice to get what ever I wanted but I didnt want to take advantage so I just got the things I...

 It's always been a goal of mine to be happy no matter what but that is something I have always struggled with. I am totally pessimistic. I expect the worst out of every situation but in turn I hope...