Darn it

Haven't written for a while but thought I would today.  It has been over a year now since loosing my son and there are times that it feels like it was yesterday and other times it feel so long ago.  I miss him so much.  We just got back from California on a vacation with my daughter and her family and it was one of the best weeks I have had for a long time.  But once I get home that heart ache returns and the feeling of emptness returns.  I have such a wonderful family of which I love very much and it is the one thing that keeps me here.  Still hoping for much better times.