Empty

It has been a while since I last wrote but I have been needed to write for a while.  This was the second holiday season without my son Lance and probably the hardest.  My sister who also lost a son said it would be and it was.  I don't think I have ever felt so empty and sad as I have been for the last few weeks.  I miss him so much and hope that someday we will see one another again, and I know we will, but it still makes it hard.  I am going to take another Grief class in a couple of weeks both to help my self and maybe help someone that has just lost a loved one to suicide.  I am looking forward to brighter days and do love my family so much.  That is the only thing that keeps me here.