Reflecting on my situation has opened my eyes to why i may be feeling the way I do. I have made so many changes in my life that i am in affect "hooked" on change.  I work better and I am more challenged when i am in the middle of chaos and turmoil. These types of season set up for additional change and therefore i thrive in that atmosphere. My goal is to gain the skills to go thru that process with out panic and abandon. When i feel the need for further change, I will find little things i can change or add to my life to keep it interesting. What I will not do is make drastic life changing decisions during these times.The drug companies have made it to where if we are in a box and can't get out, to at  least comply, exist and tread within the box, as apposed to gettin out of the box with mental clarity. I may not be completely 100% mentally, but I know have the ability to not only think outside the box but climb out of it. Now, I just have to find the lid and a few nails.