Missinglisa

This is going to be a rambling entry.  I just need to get things off my chest and this is the safest place. It is April 18, the day Lisa was to be born - the doctor accidentally booked another...

Today was not my best day.  If anything was going to go wrong, today was the day.  I checked to ensure that our Tuesday fitness class was going to be on.  We got there and the instructor didn't...

So I wrote a journal yesterday, whining about Seasonal Affective Disorder and the impact on me, and how Finnish people are prone to depression, and I am Finnish and how I had 2 triggers yesterday...

I hate winter.  I don't like the cold.  I don't like getting dressed in bulky coats, I really hate hats, and I don't like walking on ice and in ankle deep snow.  And I live in Calgary.  BUT the...

It is 2:30 am.  Another night of insomnia. The two weeks in Ottawa went by so fast.  Joe and I got as many cuddles as we could in 2 weeks.  It took awhile before Cevyn was comfortable leaving the...

It is that time of year again.  Winter is here, and the days are short.  They are getting longer but by this time of year, I lack energy and struggle with depression.  I do my best to get out and...

The holiday season is well and truly over.  We were in Edmonton this weekend for our belated Christmas turkey!  We passed about 30 vehicles in the ditch during the first 30 miles.  Luckily, our...

That title sounds a bit cynical but it is how I feel.  I have been very introspective for the last while - or perhaps self centred would be a better term!  I was very disappointed that I couldn't...

It is almost Christmas Day.  I was really bummed this morning as we opted not to do the 3 hour drive to Edmonton.  It was snowing and blowing.  Years back we would have not thought twice about...

I really do wish the holiday time was over.  I am so tired of all the hype on TV.  I hate that every time I go into a store I am bombarded with Christmas everything.  I am tired of everyone...

What is there about the number 7.  Lucky number 7 - I think not. Seven years ago was the last time I heard Lisa's voice.  The last thing I said to her was "I love you" and the last words I heard...

Who would have thought that 2 little girls could be so powerful!  I dreaded facing Lisa's husband and his new wife.  I warned Cevyn that I would not tolerate them interfering with being with my...

We have had a wonderful week with our new granddaughters. It is amazing to see their wee fingers and toes. I am sort of able to tell them apart. They are not identical but it is still a bit difficult...

Today my beautiful granddaughter and her boyfriend are about to become parents.  It hurts that Lisa is not here.  She would have been the most perfect grandmother.  She would smother those babies...

So we saw this absolutely awesome cloud on Saturday evening as we were heading out for supper with our neighbours.  We were awestruck!!  I have never seen anything like it.  We all had ideas as...