jfulk
Status: It's like I can feel the chemicals shifting in my brain. :(
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- As many of you may know, I'm a foul weather flyer here. I've made peace with the fact that I'm a DS mooch, and once again here I am. I'm personally ok at the moment. Headed down, but not crashing. Nothing time and my meds can't handle (as they...
- My wife and I have been married for about a year and a half. In this time, it's become clear that she struggles greatly with depression. Some days are worse than others. I didn't realize she dealt with it to this extent before we married. I...
- I am really disagreeing with my wife on how she is conducting herself in a particular situation. It seems that it's always fine for her to give me her opinion and cut me down, but when I disagree with her on something, it's completely terrible. ...
- As a courtesy, I have had good relationships with my immediate supervisors and felt comfortable sharing with them that I am BP. It's not a major problem for me on a daily basis. But I seem to get the feeling that I'm looked at as "broken" a little...
- The last few nights I have awakened in the middle of the night with a head full of thoughts. Some of it is jibberish, but much of it is dark. The night before last, I had to sit up and take some deep breaths to calm down. I was imagining that I...
- I'm feeling pretty normal, so this isn't anything other than venting some good old frustration. But seriously...how much crap can we pile on good old jfulk?! That's what it feels like right now. I just moved to a new city from my hometown where...
- Woke up great. Now I'm feeling exhausted just at the thought of leaving my desk and doing errands, etc. I'm tired, I am in pain (physical) and I am starting to feel down. I barely want to even post on here. I've got to get a referral to a new...
- I woke up with lots of thoughts in my head, but none of them lead to much anxiety. I just got ready and headed out and aside from lower back pain, it's a pretty good day. :-)Let's hope it keeps up!
- I went home for lunch and was having a hard time concentrating and feeling anxious (much like most of my morning.) I went ahead and took 1/2 a xanax. I'm upset about it and feeling depressed. There's a face-to-face support group meeting tonight. ...
- Waking up in the morning is very much like I'm in a game of Tetris, but none of the blocks are fitting together. I get better through the day and wind up feeling pretty good. But each morning I wake up with the same anxiousness, depression and...
- If anyone read my earlier posts this morning, you know I woke up pretty crummy. Very, very anxious. I took half a Xanax (I know that's light) and my day is getting better. I'm actually starting to rationally think through some of the stress in my...
- I awakened to feel more anxious and depressed after a pretty decent day yesterday. I am so upset about so many things. Sure there's a lot of stress, but I should be dealing with it better. I took a half of a Xanax this morning and while I'm not...
- Why?! I swear, I was feeling pretty good last night! This morning, I wake up and it all hits. I open my eyes and thoughts of all the stress in life crash upon me. My wife is not feeling too great either, so I haven't said anything to her about...
- It's hard to concentrate on being positive when an episode hits. This is my first in over three years and it's not the worst I've ever had, but it sure is familiar. So much creeps in from past memories and future worries that I can't see the...
- **I posted this in the bipolar support group as well, but wondered what anyone thought in here.**Very few, if anyone here now probably remembers me, but I was here three or four years ago. It was a tremendous help to me and I have gone this entire...