Bipolar Disorder Support Group
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I awakened to feel more anxious and depressed after a pretty decent day yesterday. I am so upset about so many things. Sure there's a lot of stress, but I should be dealing with it better. I took a half of a Xanax this morning and while I'm not anxious at the moment, I feel hazy and it's difficult to concentrate. I am at work and able to be productive on the task at hand, but things are slow going and I'm not working at my usual quick pace.
I'm scared about a lot of different things and can't think clearly about any one particular thing. I've even thought about how easy it would be to kill myself, but I know that's very selfish and so I'm not there yet and hope it doesn't progress to where it seems like a viable option. I can't risk screwing anything up, because things in my life truly are going well for me. So what on earth am I supposed to do?
I'm scared about a lot of different things and can't think clearly about any one particular thing. I've even thought about how easy it would be to kill myself, but I know that's very selfish and so I'm not there yet and hope it doesn't progress to where it seems like a viable option. I can't risk screwing anything up, because things in my life truly are going well for me. So what on earth am I supposed to do?
Let's start at the top and do all the anti-stress things that don't involve taking more pills, if that can be avoided (it may be part of why you're foggy).
Take some deep breaths, in thru the nose - out thru the mouth. Stand up tall and shake out your arms. Keep breathing and telling yourself how good things are in your life, and that this is just a LITTLE BUMP on the way, and it WILL PASS!
I don't know what other meds you're on, but sometimes they are what make me foggy, like for instance my sleeping pills and my anxiety meds (Klonopin).
You're working, so that's good. Give yourself today to not be at your best, its okay to have days that aren't perfect, and feel odd. It doesn't necessarily portend something horrid down the pike.
I'm not going to tell you to "just calm down", though basically, that's what needs to happen. Let the day come. You don't have to have control over it. If you don't feel your strongest, its okay, but don't ever let a little fog make you think about suicide, even in the abstract, alright?
YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE IT THROUGH TODAY, AND SLEEP TONIGHT AND TOMORROW WILL COME. Let it.
:-D