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  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 09/10/2022

  jfulk commented on the discussion Gotta get it out.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 09/10/2022

  jfulk commented on the discussion Gotta get it out.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Gotta get it out

  Posted by: jfulk

  Last Reply: Sunshinegirl0228 09/11/2022

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  I can't post this stuff on my social media. I don't have the desire to get into particulars, nor would I have the strength if I wanted to, but I'm so tired. I'm drained. I'm disappointed and I'm not the person I want to be or think I can be. I see all kinds of things that I want to be different, and people in my life just disappoint me at every turn.Then I start to feel bad for my selfishness. It's not so bad, I tell myself... And I feel guilty for my problems, worries, and disappointment. I am...

• Bipolar Disorder
  

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  Posted: 03/07/2021

  jfulk commented on the discussion Med Change... Side effects? Help!.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 03/07/2021

  jfulk commented on the discussion Med Change... Side effects? Help!.

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  Med Change... Side effects? Help!

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  Last Reply: supyall 03/13/2021

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  Last Monday, my pdoc rose my Lamictal from 50 to 75mg a day. I know that's not a huge dose, but I've been having upset stomach all week, and increasing fatigue. Today, I am wiped, with no energy whatsoever. I'm also a little short of breath. Does anyone have any background knowledge on this? Is it normal and will it go away? This is really not good! Almost to a point that it feels like depression. 

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 10/25/2020

  jfulk commented on the discussion Hate... Feelings of Hate.

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  Hate... Feelings of Hate

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  Last Reply: SunCloudJD 10/27/2020

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  I hate. I feel the hate inside me. It's a terrible feeling. I hate everything at the moment. I'm angry and so incredibly depressed. If I didn't feel such a strong obligation to other people, I might kill myself and put myself out of my misery. It's awful saying that, but I just don't care. I'm supposed to take care of everyone, but don't get to take care of myself. I am the boss at my work... Gotta hold it together. My wife is currently in crisis... Gotta hold it together. I've got a...

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 06/10/2020

  jfulk commented on the discussion Concerned for both my son and myself.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Concerned for both my son and myself

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  Last Reply: OlderCPer 06/10/2020

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  Hello all. As usual, I'm here when I need to type and air things out to people that I know have an understanding. I am BP2 and it has been well-managed for years. Part of my struggles are that depression is triggered easily if routine changes, and if life's problems pop up. I am now feeling very upset. I am feeling hopeless because of my son. He's 13 and is exhibiting signs of mood disorder. Irrational plans to leave in the middle of the night where he doesn't seem to recognize the danger, or...

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  My secret Sadness

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  Last Reply: SunCloudJD 12/24/2019

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  Here it is again. Another holiday where I feel depressed, but can say nothing to anyone. My wife and I have a new baby and I promised I would try to be happy during the holidays. But of course, I can't control it. I've been sick and that didn't help. Now I come to DS to get it out and just say that yes, I am blue. Wishes that I were not alive have crept into my mind. No, I'm not all the way there. Just fleeting thoughts. Merry Christmas and/or happy holidays all. I hope I feel better soon.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

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  Posted: 11/22/2018

  jfulk commented on the discussion Seasonal Woes Are Here.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

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  Posted: 11/21/2018

  jfulk commented on the discussion Seasonal Woes Are Here.

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  Seasonal Woes Are Here

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  Last Reply: jfulk 11/22/2018

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  You can almost set your freaking watch by it. I hate this! HATE it!! I want to be a normal person and love the holidays. I love my family and have so many reasons to be happy! But as is the case every year for the last 10 or so...I am sinking into depression. Please...someone that knows this struggle tell me what to do! I don't want to feel this anymore. Help me.

• Bipolar Disorder
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: jfulk

  Posted: 08/13/2018

  jfulk commented on the discussion Want to vent but can't.