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Had to take Xanax :(

jfulk
jfulk
I went home for lunch and was having a hard time concentrating and feeling anxious (much like most of my morning.) I went ahead and took 1/2 a xanax. I'm upset about it and feeling depressed.

There's a face-to-face support group meeting tonight. I'm thinking of going. I've never been to one. I miss my family back home, I miss my old job and I see very little joy right now at a time when there should be lots.

It would be easier if I were dead. But that's selfish and I'm trying to remember that.
angeleyes92
angeleyes92
if taking Xanax helps calm you down then what is wrong with it. I have a script for Ativan that I've had for almost 2 years (the first script). I only take it when I'm really bad off. Most days I try other relaxation techniques. I might end up awake till 2:30 in the morning trying to relax but most days that isn't a problem. I made sure I got a refill on my script before my vacation. I get very anxious in crowds and with us going to DC I know there are going to be crowds so I'm prepared for it. If I have to take one, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. It is a part of our lives. Learn to accept yourself for what and who you are
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
jflulk you seem to be fighting yourself on acceptance... At least that's what I think I'm hearing

Why would you be angry at yourself for taking a medication that helps you??
Have you made an appt with your GP yet??
Banging your head against the wall for what is won't help you to heal sweetie
You need some professional help!!
Big hug of comfort for you and a blessing...xo
jfulk
jfulk
The problem is Sun, that I get to feeling better. Right now, it's not as bad as when I posted this (probably the Xanax calming me down.) So I don't feel like I need to go see a doctor. Then it all starts again the next day. Here's what I'm going to do:

I will go to the meeting tonight first. Then I will get a referral to a new pdoc. Even if the appointment is for when I feel normal. I realize that I've got to get back with a Psychiatrist.

I'm not opposed to taking medication that makes me feel normal. I just kind of feel guilty for all this. I know, I know...it's irrational. But like every one of you know, I can't help it. :)
tommymott
tommymott
As one of my doctors said, guilt is a terrible thing. I compare using meds to having a broken leg and needing a cast. The cast is to help the healing process. Meds are to help the healing process so do what you need to.
china70
china70
Im sorry your feeling bad today. Don't feel bad for having to take a Xanax. Its helping you to calm down than that is ok. I jus took mine earlier. I hate to take it too but it calms me down.
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