Why?
Why do I want to die? I look fine, sure my skin is bad but people always see me with a smile on. Why do I feel so bad inside? I have no right to, nothing horribly wrong has ever happened in my life so why do I feel so horribly? Why do I hate every thing about me? Why do I want to tell people how I feel but can't? Why do I get so sad and angry over nothing? Why am I such a horrible person? :'(
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Stephanie, sometimes we can\'t answer these questions for ourself. Remember, you can\'t do this alone. My entire family on my mom and my dads side have a chemical imbalance that effects us all in different ways. It\'s not you sweet girl. And remember, we were born imperfect, so we can\'t expect to know the answers to these questions. It is important to go to someone that can answer these questions though. One way is prayer, like you\'ve been doing. Begging God to be there for you and show you the way to get help. You will be surprised how the help may come. It may not be the way you expect, but if you are sincere God will find a way to help you. Wait on him. Do all you can do to find the therapist that is educated and knows how to help. You are not alone in your questions. I think we all ask those questions at one time or another. I am here for you. I don\'t have the answers to all that either, but I can be here for you and be your shoulder and you can tell me anything. If you can\'t say it here, then email me at nettieumlor@yahoo.com privately. I\'m a good listener. I will encourage you anyway that I can. Love and hugs, mum.
Stephanie, I thought of something else. Just for this week, focus on these three questions.
Who am I
Why did God create me
What was God\'s purpose for me in life.
Think about it very hard. Try to find the answers in the Bible, (you said you love to read the bible)
Then please write me back and share the answers with me. I\'ve had to ask myself the same questions.
Love and rainbows, Mum
sometimes depression can make you have bad thoughts
i was depressed and had thoughts just like you at your age
and i always thought but why whats wrong with me my life is not so bad whats my problem
???
if i could tell 19 year old me anything now it would be this
dont be so hard on yourself
just accept yourself for who you are & where you are on your journey
when you get older (like in 10 years) you will begin to understand yourself better
its a long wait and a tough battle but its worth the voyage of discovery and you ARE going to make it
I love you (19 year old me & you Flute who remind me so much of 19 year old me)
xx if depression tells you to kill yourself tell depression to pipe down x