Not afraid to sound crazy!

For a while I have known intelectually that what I am going through is a spiritual battle but I had not fully known (and still don't because I am only human) what that ment. Tonight though I felt it, I was at a youth camp evening service and I was sitting againt a wall praying and had an all encompasing urge to hurt myself an I almost banged my head but then it was not me, not my fault and not my battle I was filled with an evil that was not me but rather using me to get back at  my God. But God protected me and stopped me from harming myself in any way. :)