It was a cold, dark, rainy morning as Mike and the boys went out to catch the bus.
The sky had just opened up as they walked out the door and the 60 yards to the end of the drive seemed like a mile.
As Mike reached to open the gate a large flash of lightning lit up the world making him jump. Lightning while holding on to a metal gate sent a thousand thoughts and fears through Mikes mind.
Eric bolted, not worrying about the umbrella Mike had brought and ran flat out to the bus. Victor only hesitated a moment under the shelter his father offered and then took off at his top speed that his foot braces would allow.
As Mike stood and watched his boys dissapear into the bus..............

Oh well, you get the picture.

Not a real sweet morning around here. It's cold, rainy, and playing hell with my pain. I've got nothing planed and it doesnt look like I'll be doing anything outside.

We went to Victors choir performance last night and I held up pretty well. I hurt when we got home but I was able to get some sleep here and there. By here and there I mean, a little in the recliner, a little in bed, and a little more on the sofa. I'll take what I can get. At least I wasn't awake all night and maybe I can start turning my hours back around to something more normal.

I think I'll just stay in out of the cold today and rest. If I get to feeling spunky I might do a few things inside. I haven't done anything stupid to hurt myself for a couple of days so I'll try to make a trend out of it.

Wishing everyone a kick-ass day,

Mike

Good morning everyone... ok maybe not good but it is morning. Mike it sounds like you could make a new career as a writer; good job but sounds like a nasty morning where you are. Its raining here too, quite hard so I won't be going out.

Manny I here ya, I don't cook supper everyday either. Even though bf has two kids some days neither of us has it in us to make a nice meal,its just opening a can of something and warming in the microwave. Even the kids can do that but I always feel bad.... my kids always got a home cooked meal. We can only do what we are capable of, no need to kill ourselves over it when there is an easier way.

It seems like it has gotten quiet on this thread since the weekend without DS, I hope it wasn't enough to get people out of the habit of checking in. Some days this thread is the only thing I get a chance to check. Hope to see lots of people checking in again. Hugs and peace,
Lisa

Hi all,

Everything is moderate here; just the same old six and seven....kids, lol

I am volunteering this morning at church so will post this afternoon. Veryy cold here this am. Frost!

Talk later, love to all

Melinda

Good day my friends. :-)

Manny- isn't it so funny how we try and do little things for other peoples' children that they aren't getting at home. I had a friend years ago whose daughter was 2 and 3. Her daughter NEVER was given anything for dinner except happy meals and pizza. I used to nag my friend a bit on this but...it was an obviously "off limits" conversation. When my friend got sick, I watched her daughter for a 24 hour period. I sat her down in a high chair with a plate of food in each section and a toddler spoon/fork with a tippy cup. The kid did not know what to do with any of it...very sad in my eyes.
PMS by the way stands for "PROBABLE MISERY & SARCASM". heheheheh

Mike- Oooohhh, I bet if you got electrocuted--you would never have to charge your butt again. It might be worth a test run...then we could put you on Myth Busters! You and I should meet up in Xat at night...I am currently on vampire hours still. I wish I had a recliner. Maybe I willl come steal yours?!?

SadSad-I agree the room has been kind of quiet lately. It seems to go in spurts. I just keep reminding everyone that this room is only as good as it's members and, only as interesting as each one makes it. Many people don't like to post for some reason or another. I say---Post! Post! Post!

Lindy- BRRRRRRR, Chill-EEEEE. I actually went outside about 2 am to smoke and there was frost on the slider door and on the deck. It was very cold last night and this morning. What is cool though is the kids picked apples off the tree this weekend and they are great! I made homemade apple compote / sauce this weekend and, I used some of it in my Harvest bread. SOOOO YUMMY! I love fall and, as long as it is not raining for days on end ...I am ok with the chill.

ME>>>>Still not sleeping great. I have not had a hard time sleeping since last fall/winter when my pain was so bad. I know that I have been doing a little too much during the days so, I gotta quit that as I know that is part of the reason I am up.
My damned ear infection is trying to come back...I can't believe it. I have been on antibiotics of varying strengths for over a month now. I am still finishing the Augmentin. The doctor said my Tympanic Membrane was severely ruptured when I went in two weeks ago. I hope that something else is not going on.
I am also still (S~T~I~L~L~!!!) waiting for any word from little ducks' SSI hearing. GEEZE it has been forever now. I have called the phone numbers too and, I am consistently told that the judge has made a decision (which they cannot share with me) and, it is with the writers to be sent out to me. ARRRGGHHHH.

HUGS and LOVE all!

Hello everyone,

I'm still very much in the twilight zone and expect to be for some time. This has hit me very hard and isn't an easy thing to deal with. You all have still been very much on my mind and in my prayers. I've been trying to answer a few posts. Send out a few messages. I worry you all will think I've given up on you when I haven't. This has shown me even more how important everyone is to me. Just don't forget me!
My stress levels have reached maximum levels and my body is paying for it. I'm living proof that stress=more pain. My dr did write me script to calm me down some so I can get more restful sleep.
Thank you for all the support that has been sent my way.
Thank you to my special friends that are their to get me through this and you know who you are--I love you

I know weather changes and lifestyle changes are causing extra pain in many of your lives. Make the decision that you are stronger than it is and it is just part of who you are. It can only rule you if you let it.

Much love,
Toni

Good Morning,

Toni, I am thinking of you during your hard time. I wish there was some way we could take some of that hurt and stress off your shoulders and make it better but I guess what they say about time and it heals. Please take care of yourself as much as you can.

I am up and going so far and will see how the day will play out as my arm is having a fit with some nerve pain which is odd as it is usually my leg and back area and my arm decided to join the party. My pain meds seems not to help this nerve pain at all and I am going to have to say something to my doctor when I see her this Friday and see what she says. I do not want to add any more meds to my system as if I know my system it will have some kind of side effect that will make my life worse and not better.

It is like I am damned if I do and damned if I dont.

Not sure what is on my list to do and will play it by ear today

I am up much earlier than normal today. I have an appointment with my gp in 1/2 an hour. Hoping to get some help for the terrible night-time anxiety, I'm not getting much sleep. Last night was better, always is just when I've got a doctor appt. lol. Have to talk to her today about the gradual return to work that insurance wants me to do. I don't think I'm ready but she's the one who gets to decide. She's usually good about taking my word for my pain though so lets hope.

Have a good day everyone. The sun is shining here for now but its just coming up so that could change. Lots of rain in the forecast. Minimal pain day and hugs to all,
Lisa

Good morning all,

Not much happening, I managed to get some sleep last night so that's good, I'm trying real hard to get my hours turned back around.

It's cold here again and it really sets off my aches and pains.

I got everyone out of here real smooth this morning and now I'm just listening to the silence.

I don't hurt horribly but then again I haven't done a damn thing in the last few days. I've acomplished nothing but to not hurt myself. So manny I can relate to the damned if you do or don't. I can't find that happy medium and it's like a see-saw of feel bad.

My plan is to wing it today. I don't feel real spunky and my hands are aching so I don't think I'll be doing much typing.

Good luck at the doc, SSLisa.

Now I guess I'll soak up some of this peace and quiet.

Have a good day everybody,

Mike

GUILTY I read more than I write. Always am thinking about you all. Mike I loved your story of the lightening and thunder. It was very clever but I was thinking mostly of you out in that damp cold air and how it made your feel. Ours is on it's way. Seems Arkansas goes for the drama. We get the 20+degree temp drops within a few hours instead of gradual. Hope you day is warm and cozy.

Lisa I have been following the "dance with the insurance". Darn it you have or someone has paid for it. Why do people want our money without giving anything in return? Long term disability is just that. Usually it is specific for the job you do and often premiums are based on that. It should take into consideration the fact that you might not be able to do that job for the rest of your life. If that is the case then it should pay the rest of your life. Don't let them bully you. Your company or yourself has paid for this. I am glad you trust your doctor. Hope you can get something to help you rest. It makes all the difference in the world.

Manny you are "mother earth". You take care of everyone. I get tired just reading what you have done and then I read you think you haven't done enough. Sounds like you have done some of that walking in the rain as well to get the little one off to school.

Duckie my friend how are you faring without your daily showers on your deck? I hope this fluffy duck is able to find her water elsewhere. A duck has got to have some splashing water each day.

IRocket loving the new avi. Perfect for just peeking in. Stay in the twilight zone as long as you need to because we know you love us and we love you. Good advice to rule the day and don't let the pain rule.
I forget sometime and at the end of the day I often have to put a mark on the pain side instead of the me side. But with friends here I find myself putting less marks on the pain side. The pain is not going to win.

David I hope you are kickin butt on the job and that the pain isn't kickin your butt. It sounds like you are very active with the new position. I can't imagine jumping into that from being at home chasing Rocco around.
Remember and I know you know this......When you give it your best shot then you have done everything you can do. That means my friend do not allow yourself to suffer. I am worried about you.

Me I am just hanging with the 60lb 8 month pups. Trying to figure out how we can all cuddle. We can't all fit on the sofa and I can't get on the floor because of the bionic hip. Got ideas anyone.

Wishing all and that means 200+ less pain and more joy.

Mornin' all,

Cold again last night. I woke up at 3 freezing my arse off, hubby had the covers and heat was set at 60:(( I reset it to 68 and it was nice to wake up to a warm house.

I am making pot of chili for my fam today. Got everything I needed at WMart yesterday.

I am grounded today as my hubby took my car. His is in the shop getting new brakes, new tie rods and an alignment to the tune of 600 one dollar bills.
I ran our bank balance and tried to reconcile it last night. It is much less than I thought so am trying to find my error. In the meantime the bills are stacking up. I think we may have to take a draw on our line of credit. Hate, hate, hate to do that but we have property taxes due Nov 15th....It is always something, isn't it?

My son sees the counselor at 2pm PST. If anyone sees this, we would appreciate your prayers.

Gotta get going on this chili. Thinking of you all today and wish each and every one of you a positive, painfree day. Toni, good to see your post.

Melinda

Hey Everyone,

I'm here and I am tired. I started back full time at work and it's really draining me, to the point where all I want to do after work is nothing.

I still check the posts, but haven't had a lot of spare time. I hope all is as well as could be for all of you and I'm sure I'll feel better once I adjust.

Right now, just kinda blah.............

Big Hugs,
David.

Good morning everyone,

not real sure what happened yesterday. I took my afternoon meds and they really threw me for a loop. I'm positive I took everthing right but for some reason it nailed me to the floor and I was really out of it all afternoon. I slept through most of it and can barely remember meeting the school bus when the boys got home and then passed out until dinner.

All that didn't help me sleep through the night and I was in and out again and now I'm just waiting until time to wake everyone up.

My 'not do anything to hurt myself' streak is over. I fell in the middle of the night and I'm still assessing the damage. My right leg just kind of vanished for a minute and I fell on my right side. My hip has a good bruise, my knee feels a little funny and my foot is trobbing pretty good. Don't think anything's broke but I'm pretty sore right now.

The wife wants a date tonight so I have to put myself together and get my feelgood face ready to go. She wants to go eat and then go watch some halloween theater production in one of the small towns near us. Sounds fun, just not too sure how I'll be feeling.

I think I'm already starting to feel the stress of this time of year. There's more and more going on and the weather's getting cooler all the time and I'm starting to feel a little edgy. I hate the winter more every year and I know I'll feel rotten for several months, then for some reason winter is when there's the most things going on that I have to get out in it.

Oh well, enough complaining, I have to play rooster now and start waking these sleepers I live with.

Check back later, hope your all doing well,

Mike

Good Morning,

Mike could you of maybe taken a second dosage of meds on accident, I have done that before as my memory sucks.
Hope your aches and pains from the fall does not give you to much problems because the date night sounds fun as I love anything to do with Halloween and a play of sorts is something I would love to do and my hubby would not love to do and probably would not do so kudos for you for going.

Same old things going on here, I call it groundhog day is my everyday. I did get my kitchen floor cleaned yesterday which is a big hurdle for me as even tho I have a hoover floor cleaner which scrubs and sucks up the water it is still really physically to me.

I then vacuumed as I would of waited till today to do but my niece had her boyfriend and his daughter over for dinner. At first when she said he was coming over she was going to make it LOL I should of known better and you would of thought she would of helped cleaned up or did the dishes after dinner NOPE.

Hope everyone has a low pain day

Good morning...I have been up since 2:30. FUACK!

I hope you are all doing ok, better than yesterday is always better than nothing. I hope your pain is lesser than it was earlier or yesterday...and if it is not...I hope it gets there soon.

I am thinking about each of you and keeping you all in my good thoughts. I'm sorry that I cannot address everyone individually this morning....I am having med fog today.

ME>>> pain is so / so....waiting for little duck to go to school so I can go to bed. One more hour and 1/2 until she leaves.

Super hugs my friends!!

hi all,

so sorry i havent been around. been reading but typing is too hard these days, been thinking of u all and giving you each a hug in my mind praying ur all hanging in there

hugs

bridget