I've worked so hard the last several days that I feel like I've actually done more damage to my neck and shoulder. I've been quiet because it hurts so much to sit at a desk and type. I can't even get any relief when I lie down...no rest for this hairdresser!

Sunday is supposed to be a day off for me, but I had promised haircuts to my Dad and Sister. I figured I'd feel better by today. I have no idea why I thought that. But...damnit, if I plan on feeling horrible, wouldn't it be a gven?

So I woke up in awful pain, medicated, used heat, drank coffee, medicated again. It was clear that nothing was going to make a difference so I did the haircuts, told my family it was no problem and by the time I finished, my neck and shoulder were is such spasm that I could have cried.

I promised my son that I'd make apple crisp for him...you guessed it. I made two.

Trazodone is the only hope I have left. I don't know what I'm going to do. I have to work and right now, I'm thinking I'd rather not wake up tomorrow.

Superduck thank you so much for taking the time and putting in the effort to provide personal feedback to each of us... my brain is so foggy most of the time I'd be all muddled up but I'm attempting to do a few.

Cathy I'm impressed that you can even post with your double vision. My eyes have been blurry and I'm constantly rubbing them to try to clear them and its so annoying. I have a friend with MS and she goes through the double vision too, hope you can get it cleared up soon.

Cherry my heart goes out to you. You are so giving and selfless but you really need to take care of yourself or those family members that you are so good to will soon be spoon-feeding and bathing you. It scares me to think that I may someday need someone to take care of me. Be good to yourself too.

I'm getting by ok. Some old stuff, overdid it yesterday cause I finally felt half decent - took care of that feeling right quick.... I just never learn. Can't sleep tonight, its after 3 am and I'm still wide awake. Oh well, I'll sleep eventually. Good night all, Hugs
Lisa

Good Morning all,

Monday morning and back to the daily grind which is ok if I didnt have some sort of structure I would end up in bed all day and sometimes still do my goal today is to get all my work done and try not to take a nap I know silly but I find myself sleeping the day away.

Superduck you can come over anytime you want and bring your little duck because I have a son who is 16 I bet they would get along both have moms trying to do their best.

I have to get back on track seems since CP I have been waiting for the day to wake up normal and I guess it is not going to happen and have to learn to live with it.

Hope everyone has a great day

Dang, Manny, I was holding on to hope I'd wake up from this too.

Monday....Yuck! Time to get everyone off and out of here. I didn't sleep well again but I'm sure I'll grab a nap later.

I've been semi-productive the last few days, I'll try to keep it going without overdoing it if I can.

I've noticed as long as I don't do too much that my pain levels are much better. It's when I overdo that things get bad.

It definatly feels like fall around here, it's been cooler and windy(hell it's always windy here) and it's like my body's telling me to get ready because winter's going to slip up on me. I think most of us know what the cold does to our pain levels.

Just going to muddle along and try to accomplish a few things today.

Hope your all doing alright,

Mike

Morning gang,

Well, it is 9 am here in the west. I made breakfast for my son and I and now I have to take him to work and then go to physical therapy. My back is significantly better but I have to be careful. I do not know what the therapist has in mind for today but I would like to try to ride the stationary bike and/or walk the treadmill for a few minutes at least.

I have to file my daughter's tax return today--last day for any that have procrastinated like me. She lived in Chicago for two months of last year so it has been a real pain for me to do a non resident return. But I went to the Oregon Dept of Revenue on Thursday and they had someone call me on Friday who explalined that it is all taxable in OR and I just file IL to get whatever she paid there back. Also, gotta pay bills tonight and stretch money which is also a challenging thing for me. I write the checks and hubby signs them so that he has a clue of what is going on. We talk too, he would just prefer to spend his free time on other things such as MUSIC!1

Still have a major headache but I can't cancel pt this late. Don't know what the ha is all about but won't dwell on it. Everyone have a good day. I will be thinking of each of you.

Melinda

Good morning my friends!

I have just given everyone a SUPER BIG HUG! I hope you liked it and, of course it did not hurt.

@Cathy
Sorry you are having a flare up. That is always a very difficult thing to deal with. I hope you come out of it soon

@ Cherry
Trazadone? Really? That is an anti-depressant/sleep medicine as far as I know. They just my little duck on that to go along with her Citalopram, Klonapin and Abilify. She had been on a peak or low ( I never know) and had not been sleeping in like two weeks. The trazadone seems to be helping her as it increases her anti depressant effects and, it also helps her sleep better. I think you may need to check something else out my friend. I am sorry that you hurt so bad.

@SadSadLisa
HUGS to you. I try and talk to each person...sometimes it is too hard and sometimes I forget. We all just do the best we can right?

@Manny
K...coming for dinner. I will be happy to bring little duck, she is a sweetie and you will get a kick out of her. I am so thankful that Monday has come so everyone has left me today. I don't know why but, I am not able to relax near as much on the weekend or when school is out vs. when they are all gone. I LOVE that I do not have to talk to anyone I don't want to if at all and, I LOVE that everyone does not NEED SOMETHING from me all the time. As for waking up normal....I have known for a long time that I will never be normal. At this point, I am happy to wake up and be able to bathe/get out of bed on my own!!

Mike
I am glad that you are slowing down some. I know this bothers you but, it is more important to keep a decent control over your pain. Going through those contstant spikes in pain level wreaks havoc on your body and your mind. I hope you guys had a good weekend. My love and respect to you and your family my dear friend.

Lindy
How fun...taxes. ECK! I still have to pay mine for 2010. I guess I should do that pretty quick huh? CRAP! Between taxes ( I owe like 135.00) to state; A new battery for my truck which is currently not running (like 160.00 bucks); the holidays upcoming and winter coats for the kids.....OH Vomit! I would rob a bank but, I am pretty sure I would get caught since I don't walk good. LOL. Maybe I could have my scooter put on stealth mode?? HEHEHEHE I hope you get to a have a great PT appointment. That always helps to relieve stress and it sounds like you need it.

>>>>ME>>>>
I went to back to the urgent care yesterday for my ear as it has been draining yucky stuff and, I cannot hear out of it at all. The doctor informed me that I have a massive rupture of my tympanic membrane and, a massive infection of the inner and outer ear. He has referred me to an ENT. He did not seem sure if I would regain my hearing. So, back on huge antibiotics to add to my array of other meds and, different ear drops for the infections/swelling.

I was also able to figure out how to create pictures of my MRI's so I could post them....that was so much fun. I like to think I am smarty pants! HEHEHHE The weekend was good, enjoyed the kiddos and, completed the shopping for my little ducks birthday. She is fascinated with Asian language, culture and cuisine. Some of you may remember that my kids get whatever they want for their birthday dinner and, last year she got homemade chinese food and an ice cream cake.

This year the menu she created is this: Budda's delight (tofu/asparagus/onion/mushroom); Chicken Chow Mein; Won Ton soup; Chinese BBQ pork spareribs and Egg Rolls. She has chosen a Mocha cheese cake for her birthday as well. Needless to say that I will be cooking most of the week. This means that tonight for dinner.....leftovers! HEHEHHE

HUGS to all!

Gotta go again...........Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Well I haven't done much except peck at this laptop all day. I was hoping the sun would come out and then I was going to work outside but it never did. It's almost 3 and still no sun. My only excitement was having to run some homework up to the school. I screwed up what day my buttscope was and blew that because I ate at 4 in the morning. That's OK, I don't mind putting that off. I was kind of looking forward to the nap though.

Just a yucky day here, it's cloudy, windy, cold and drizly, not my favorite combination.

So far I haven't accomplished anything but I have enjoyed spending some time on the computer so it hasn't been a totally wasted day. At least I can't hurt myself taking it easy. Hmmmmm....famous last words.

Hey Everyone,

Well...today was my first day back at work. I am tired, but happy. My whole outlook is different. My wife and our dog and our cats seem to have missed me. The cats I'm not too sure of, but I didn't want to leave them out. We'll see how I feel tomorrow???

Rocco actually jumped in my arms when I came home.

Big Hugs,
David.

I didn't do much today, but I did call the transit bus people. They are sending me a package about it all. I talked to the person that handles disabled people and she took down my info and it looks like I might not be so stranded any more. This is great news. They will even take me to my dr who's an hour away.

Feel better hugs to all,
Toni

Sinus headache returned and with a vengenance. My balance seems a little off so I drove straight home from the gym and haven't driven since. What is up with this? Weather lovely and sun finally came out. There must be some kind of a weather front off the coast. Not sure if I will be on tonight. Take care all...

Melinda

Good morning,

Well I wrote the other day that I wanted to be more productive during the day and not sleep the day away so yesterday I started no nap day and what a freaking mistake as by the time 7pm came around I was in so much pain I was nauseous to my stomach.

I think I have to realize I need a balance as I never want to go through a day like yesterday again as long as I can. Not saying I dont want to have goals but I am going to have to realize CP is here to stay and I have to play nice with it or it will beat me up. I am thinking maybe doing a little and then just take an hour and half nap and get up and do this and that. I am going to try that and let you know how that works out.

Other then that I did get some stuff done and made a cake which was good it was completely home made no box this time, cleaned out a closet and cleaned up the kitchen and made dinner.

Other good news is my son got his first new car yesterday he is 23 and we have been sharing my cars since he was 16 and I am so excited to have my own car back at least until the other two get there license as they are old enough but I told them do not get a license until you can pay your own insurance so if they dont want to get a job I will just be the taxi.

Hope everyone is doing well

i feel awful right now !!!!!!!!!!......my goodness,leaving my mark by saying pain or not im loving all my friends ive found on d s!!!!!!!

Good morning everyone

Manny
I have told my kids the same thing....I would pay for their license but, they have to get a job to pay for their own insurance. Neither of my kids have a license and, thankfully.....my son has admitted that he is not ready to drive. My daughter wants her license but, does not want to drive either. I am safe for now!
As for your naps...I do the same thing. I alternate my day ...some chores, lay down, some chores and a bath, some chores and a nap then dinner and back to bed for more laying down. By the time dinner is done I am pretty much in agony. Do the best you can and definately play nice with your CP. It will kick your butt everytime if you don't.

Amerika
I am so sorry that you feel so bad. I am glad that you were able to check in and I hope you will feel some relief soon.

ME>>>>>
Had a hard night sleeping. Emotionallly, I feel good and positive, Physically I feel like crap. OH well! It could be worse.

HUGS and love and support to you all!

Damn, I should have spent the night with you Brandi. I got 1 hour of sleep.
Sorry to hear you didn't hold up Manny. I do it all the time.

Oh boy, where am I right now, as I said I only slept an hour between 11:30 and 12:30. My head is spinning from just getting everyone off for thier days. I'm groggy and hurting.

I had awful pain in my lower back that kept me up all night. I haven't looked at the weather yet but everyone is telling me it's supposed to freeze tonight and we're going to get a cold blast. I geuss I better go pick all the tomatoes today.

I sent out some messages yesterday to a few of our missing in action friends, but no replies yet.

Just going to take it easy today, seems like I've been doing that alot lately. I'm tired, hurting and not too motivated.

I've been stirring my brain trying to think of more topics for the group, but right now my brain is mush from exaustion.

I hope your all having a decent day, sorry your having a hard time Amerika, I'll check back in later,

Mike

Here I am, checking in. Not doing too bad so far today. A little afraid to do much of anything cause it seems the smallest thing will set off my pain. Yesterday I swept my daughter's kitchen - I swear its not more than 6'x6' and I hurt bad for the rest of the night.... its ridiculous. I feel like I have to lay here like an invalid all the time. I don't feel any tremendous pain right now and I don't want to but because I'm not in horrible pain I WANT to do something. I really hate living like this.... damned if you do and damned if you don't!!

Hope everyone is doing well today
Hugs, Lisa