I know that you can be lonely alone or with people. I was in a long term relationship for ten years. It been around 16 months since I left. I actually felt worse being with him because he was very mean to me because I had chronic pain. He also was very controlling and didn't take any of my needs into consideration. It was terrible. I also feel like I am somewhat better when I am with someone that I know isn't judging me. I have an aide and case worker who I know like me for myself. I tend to feel better in their presence because they treat me like a real person not a disease. I guess I would like to make a friend outside of my agency family who felt the same way. It is hard to do. I have has all my friends leave me at different time from feeling frustrated or mad at me. Well I thought they were my friends but really weren't obviously. I am just going to keep going on.

Check-in: my neck now hurts in addition to my back. I saw the PM doc this morning and we are trying PT again, increasing the pain meds and going to see an orthopedic surgeon for another opinion. If everything fails he can do a trial for the pain pump, but really wants me to exhaust all other avenues.
My best friend called last night and I broke into tears while speaking with him. He stayed on the phone with me and spoke with me about old times. It was very kind of him.
David I love your comment that God was behind every hug I received the church.
I am so blessed to have a wife of 32 years who loves me. I love sharing the hours with her especially at night in bed. With her around until so confident.
Take care everyone and let's hope for low pain and somehow we can get through this.
Hank add

Well this week I celebrate my 22nd anniversary on the 23rd and my 49th birthday on the 24th I have lived with chronic pain since the age of 30 it has been hard but I feel that I'm blessed I had a man who married me with 4 kids and soon after I fell sick and he stood by me took care of me at my lowest. So even though I am stuck with the illness and the chronic pain my life has balanced out with the love of my husband who encouraged me to stick with my disability when we lost everything we had worked for , he would encourage me when people said it was all in my head or I was seeking drugs or that my faith was not strong
So this week I will celebrate my life such as it come to be know don't think this all happen overnight it was a long hard process but I have arrive to some semblence of omy former life and happy on where I'm going
BLESSINGS AND A LOW PAIN DAY
Denise

having hard times rigth now

Minnie, I'm sorry you're having a rough time. You can PM me anytime and I'll be a good listener.

Denise...wow...holy cow...it sounds like you found one in a million! You are blessed.

I'm having another day pretty much like the rest. My neck has decided to add a heck of a spasm to usual pain, but I'll survive.

I only had one client today for a color. Unfortunately, that was all I could really handle. I've been doing this woman's hair for quite a few years and have developed quie a history with her. She's completely loyal and always gives a $10 tip. Today, she suprised me with a $25 tip! I htink it bothers her to know I have surgery ahead and keep working through the pain. Maybe she wants to make sure she'll be first on my call back list! Either way...itmade my day!

Hugs o all,
Cherry

Denise , wishing you a very Happy Birthday and a Happy Anniversary . You have a good men and you are blessed. Hugs

Minnie, sending you hugs and prayers

i am back i have been off here for 2 weeks not by choice but hugs to ev 1 love you all and missed you all when i was gone

sorry to hear so many of you are having rough times.

hugs to those who truly need them.

Im feeling bad for others around me at the mo having to put up with me. I cant drive at the minute so Im relying on everyone and I feel bad.

HUGS xx

also...I hate to see that for us being in chronic pain is here to stay...the best thing to do is to ignore the pain...we are stronger than the pain and do not need the pain to anger us or make us say or do anything to cause us harm. Those who are cryptic will understand.

hugs xxx

kate333 i agree with your last comment Reply #1420 hugs to you and hugs to ev 1

Kate I am sorry for your pain. It's so hard when there are so many things to add to your stress.

I hope everyone feels better tonight and add those members to your prayers who have been permanently banned and cannot get our support that they so desperately need because of problems here.

I don't know Kate.
I think we should tell others in chronic pain that there should be some sort of relief from it. Unless we tell those who can fix it, nothing will ever get better.
When there is no good reason for being in chronic pain, it should be kept at bay by those who have the ability to ease the pain.

63 more days

I thought I was stronger than the pain, until this morning at 4am when I found myself driving to the hospital. My first time in 30 years where I just couldn't stand the migraine and went into the emergency doors.

I had an IV coctail that the nice doc said usually works. It didn't work on me, but they gave me a lot of morphine so I slept. I'm now heavily drugged but the pain is still there and when the 5 percocet he gave me run out, I just pray this will have run it's course and be gone.

Damn this one hurts so bad that I can't form words to a proper conversation. I thought I was tougher than this, but the migraine is so sharp it is winning this time.

Kate and Bunny...........too funny!!! Got it.

You guys are great. I love this group. Minnie, bless your heart, I hope you get to feeling better.

I feel pretty decent today. My wife has an antique show this weekend. I helped just a little today to pack, and the pain came. It seems any little thing I do messes up my spine. 3 months post-op now. Hopefully it will get better.

Denise Congrats!!!

Angela.......counting down with ya!!

I hope you all are good.

To our newer posters please keep sharing. We need you!!

Big Hugs,
David.