awww sam think of this as an exciting new beginning for you

xxxxx

ahh get pumped for your vacation! you can show off your beautiful head of hair in foriegn places!!

Ha it wasn't that bad actually! Yep Emmy paid hourly, so it's all good. It's true, in the end we gotta do what's best for us, I can't stay on as a waitress forever for fear of hurting their feelings hehehe.

Mew, sorry you have a cold Lien. Enjoy your fresh OJ!

Thanks Mrs Kolo, I do..... It's so exciting. It's a new phase, and I just can't believe it's actually happening.

Firante YEAH! Hehe I'm looking for a hairdresser right now actually.

Ok.......... So after writing that last sentence it really reminded me I need to get on to making an appointment. I have found this place and I called. Fuck. It was hard! I asked if she had heard of trichotillomania. She said no. I said it was a hair pulling condition. She said ohhhhh yeah I've heard of that. I said, well I have that. She said, oh, so is your hair thinned out then? And I said no, I have been pull free for over 7 months. And she said CONGRATULATIONS! I know that's a really hard thing to let go. And I said yeah. I was trying not to cry the whole time and I think she could tell. I got her name, and I'll make an appointment for next week when I get my work roster. When I got off the phone I just cried. Wow. I really didn't expect that to happen. I don't know why I didn't expect it, every time I tell someone I have trich I break down and cry. Jeez. Trich has really done a number on me! The secrecy and shame, day in day out for over a decade.

I really don't want to cry when I'm in the salon. I really, really really don't. This is hard! But I can do it, and I will do it. Next week, it's hair cut time. First time in maybe 8 or 9 years. Eep!

I definitely understand. I got a haircut after the last time I shaved my head. It was a walk-in place, and it probably took me half an hour of sitting in my car, listening to music and trying to calm myself down enough that I could go in. But I'm so proud of you for telling them about it and raising awareness! I really think getting out of your comfort zone to talk about it puts a decent chink in trich's armor. You are awesome, Miss Sam. Enjoy that haircut, and let them pamper you! :)

AHHHH YAY IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! its definitely going to be hard, but LOOK AT THE PROGRESS YOUVE MADE! that is incredible!!! i mean, look at you! you're sharing your condition with strangers! thats so brave! and crying is completely normal- at least to me it seems normal, ahha- i would be flat out bawling
and im sure they understand- thats great that the lady seemed to be nice and happy for you!
make sure you upload a pic of your beautiful new do afterwards and tell us how it goes!
god youre such an inspiration- i feel like your blazing a new trail for all of us trich-ies!

Go Sam!! I am so truly inspired by you every time you post. I am in the same boat as you however concerning the whole haircut thing. I just have to build up the courage to start making the calls. Good luck to you and let us know how it goes.

OMG Sammy I'm so proud of you! You are so brave and strong and beautiful and everything else awesome we can come up with. You're the best!!! <3

Wow! Just making that call is a big accomplishment and for as much as you are bothered by your tears, that's a testament that a part of you recognizes just how big of a deal it is. So bask in pride, knowing how far you've come in just 7 months!

You are doing amazing! The tears are a good thing - you are feeling it!

can't wait to see your wonderful haircut :)

It sounds like she will be great for your first time back in a salon. I definitely think you found the right person. You are so strong for making the appointment, which I think is the hardest part. When you're in there, you'll do okay, I just know it. xo

That is such a smart way to approach it. Good for you!! I'm so proud of you. Don't worry about crying. Just let go & enjoy yourself. I know how you feel about that, though. You Rock!!!!

Wow, I saw you made an appt for a hair cut :D that is great and such a good idea you called before hand - I had a horrible experience once when I wanted my hair styled for the 'reveal' for prom after a few year hiding behind bandanas so was def a good move to call before hand.

I cry loads! I have decided that some people cry a lot and some people don't because I used to get really worked up about how much I cry compared to what I think is normal but THERE IS NO NORMAL. It is definitely a release of emotions so let it all out! and if you cry in the hair dressers- that is to be expected. You will be so proud and happy :D take some tissues ;)

welldone :D wow you are an inspiration to us all. xxxx

Thank you SO MUCH!!!!!!! You are the only people who can truly understand the FEAR that the dreaded hairstylist can put in our hearts. Hehe. BKC, yes I'm glad that the person I called knew about trich, but I think that a lot of people could have been the right person. Cos even if she didn't know, I'm sure she still would have been sympathetic. I have faith that most people would respond kindly. If they didn't they get a great big go f*** yourself from me.

Thank you thank you thank you again, I couldn't be at this point without this group. There is just absolutely no way. I am so grateful for the day I stumbled across DS, and Granit invited me to come and visit this group.

Babypanplayer - I cry loads too. I cry at everything! Happy and sad things. Ha, I think I will take some tissues. My bf will prob be there, so he'll keep me happy.

I"m so busyyyy, and here I am procrastinating. Bad Sam!

Yaaaay!! I’m a bit late, but how GREAT that you called and made an appointment and told them about trich and… You’re amazing :D
When I’m really tired and frustrated I sometimes cry when we’re out of bread, so don’t bother about crying over a REAL big deal :)
Woohooow I’m so proud of you, you’re such an inspiration!

You ARE an inspiration. Now, stop procrastinating :-)