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- It has been a hell of a ride over here. The anti depressants are kicking in. I've met a guy friend that I've been hanging out with and sure enough stbx came by today. We were intimate and I'm so confused. My guy friend says it's just his man radar...
- it's been almost fourteen weeks and I don't feel normal yet. I can go do a few things here and there. I don't have much energy because I am not eating well. When can I get off this ride? My poor kids are suffering. My 13 year old who is almost 14 is...
- Happy New Year! I'm home after church and an after gathering. The stbx took the kids skating. It was actually a nice night.The tragic part of my marriage that is happening has taught me to never take a single second for granted. This site has been...
- I am feeling better but the pain is still there. When does it leave? He's moved to the next town over and gets the kids sometimes. I get out and do stuff and try my best but the pain follows me around. I have two friends that call to check on me and...
- i can't even be honest I want to lie. Told the attorney to hold the retainer. I don't have the courage to file. Every decision I make turns into disaster. I even looked up hanging mysejf today. I'm depressed and I have my two boys here. All I could...
- i did it. I filed for divorce. It hurt like hell to do it. I called my pastor and the kids God mother to help get out of bed to go. He was a very nice man.My reason for filing is our custody arrangement. There is none. He will not give me his work...
- I brought a lot of dysfunction to my marriage. I was verbally abusive and wanted my spouse to conform to my ideal. He then went on to lie and cheat and eventually leave. I blame him because he left but we were equally destructive. I have very low...
- Hosted the Christmas Eve party and I'm in my room having an anxiety attack. He changed his status on Facebook to divorced and we haven't filed paperwork yet. I can't believe I'm expected to act normal and I feel like passing out. My youngest is 10...
- I host a Christmas Eve party each year and I'm lying here so tired. My ten year really loves the holidays I guess because maybe I did too. Right now I want to sleep and drug myself until January. Stbx is enjoying a peaceful time in his apartment...
- i found one of the women by husband is sleeoing with. A young nurses aid. I messaged her. I want to message her parents and family and tell them their daughter is a home wrecker.
- trying to do it all caught up to me today. Stbx didn't show up to sons Christmas show. I picked up both kids and left them at home for him to pick up. I get home thinking he's taken them. Nope fed them fast food and left them to their electronic...
- my stbx is filled with so much anger and hate towards me. He's trying to kill me emotionally. The minute I get stronger he throws something in there. Today he says he's cutting the support payment in half. With Christmas a few days away. He's kind...
- I'm not sure how this is supposed to work. He's gone no contact on me and went out to celebrate his new position at work. I had to find out via social mediaI was so crushed. The man I've spent 15 years with doesn't share anything with me. People use...
- being optimistic is so hard. Trying to take care of two boys, a house, a dog and working is so hard. The pain of the heartache leaves me numb. We are so seperated no communication and we can go days without seeing one another. Wow I am speechless....
- so my stbx went no contact, no calls, text etc (even for my birthday). He sends an email today asking can I pick up on his days next week. I reply no problem. I follow up with an email asking can discuss the terms of our seperation in terms of...