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FIGURED TODAY WAS GONNA BE THE SAME AS EVERYDAY..BUT I WAS WRONG,GOT A SURPRISE CALL FROM FRIENDS .IT WAS NICE TO KNOW THAT THEY WERE THINKING ABOUT ME...THREE OF THEM SITTIN AT THE LODGE,PASSING...

SO VERY TIRED OF HIS EVERYDAY DRINKING...JUST WHEN I THINK I HAVE THINGS UNDER CONTROL,HE COMES HOME WORSE..I CANT TAKE THE VERBAL ABUSE AND NEVER KNOWING HOW SEVERE ITS GONNA GET..PHYSICAL ABUSE IN...

HEY EVERYONE!! I STARTED A NEW SUPPORT GROUP CALLED: MARRIED WITH A SIDE OF FRUSTRATION AND SADNESS...ITS FOR MARRIED ,SAD AND LONELY AND PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT MARRIED BUT IN LONG RELATIONSHIPS AS...

WELL,ITS 2;00AM ALREADY ONCE AGAIN.SO MUCH FOR GOING TO BED EARLY..WELL, I HAVE MAINLY BEEN ON THE DEPPRESSION AND LONLINESS SUPPORT GROUP SITES AND DECIDED I NEEDED A CHANGE OF PACE.,SO I HAVE BEEN...

YES MY DAY WAS JUST AS NOT F...G WONDERFUL AS I PREDICTED.YES THE SUN WAS SHINNING AND PEOPLE JUST COULDNT BELIEVE WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY IT WAS....WHO CARES,I WAS A PRISONER IN MY OWN HELL AGAIN.IF IT...

GOOD MORNING TO ALL,STILL ON THE NO SLEEPING ROLLER COASTER....I KEEP GOING FROM ONE EXTREME TO THE NEXT.CANT SLEEP,CANT SLEEP...AND WHEN I FINALLY DO THEN I DONT WANT TO GET UP.MY BACK PAIN HAS BEEN...

WELL,HERE IT IS 2:00AM AND HERE I AM AGAIN...AFTER FRIDAYS DAY OF COMPLETELY COMEING UNGLUED,TODAY I AM CALM AND TIRED. I HAVE ANOTHER DOCTOR APPT.TOMAROW WEL, RATHER TODAY AT THIS POINT..I AM...

I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO EAT RIGHT AND WALK DAILY,STAY POSITIVE  TO GET MYSELF HEALTHY MENTALLY AND PYHISICALLY.I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN.BUT WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPY?????MY KIDS MAKE ME HAPPY BUT...

WELL,ITS 1:43 AM AND NOTHING NEW I AM STILL AWAKE.I SHOULD BE GOING TO BED BECAUSE I HAVE A DOCTORS APPT. EARLY.I AM RATHER NERVOUS ABOUT THIS APPT. BECAUSE ITS WITH THE DOCTOR I STOPPED GOING TO.I...

well, i havent written in awhile and thats strange for me because writing is something i really enjoy..i try everyday to be so positive but i am really just crumbling inside and so very much...

ON DECEMBER 17 2005 MY LIFE CHANGED FOREVER.EVEN THOUGH TIME HAS PASSED,IT FEELS LIKE YESTERDAY. I WAS OUT CHRISTMAS SHOPPING LATE AROUND MIDNITE,WHEN MY VAN HIT A PATCH OF ICE IN THE ROAD,THEN A...

WELL,IT IS A WEDNESDAY I GUESS.ALL THE DAYS SEEM TO SLIDE INTO ONE ANOTHER..I HAVENT FELT MUCH LIKE WRITING IN MY JOURNAL LATELY,JUST TALKING WITH EVERYONE HERE AT DS AND CHECKING OUT DIFFERENT...

WELL,NO SURPRISE ITS 3;40AM AND I AM STILL AWAKE BUT I DID REST MOST OF THE DAY.FRIDAY NIGHT I WAS UPSET BECAUSE MY HUSBAND WAS GOING OUT WITH FRIENDS AGAIN AND I WAS GOING TO STAY IN AGAIN BUT I...

WELL,I FINALLY WENT TO BED AT 6:45 THIS MORNING,ONLY TO WAKE UP THREE HOURS LATER.I JUST DONT WANT TO GO TO BED.MY BODY IS EXUASTED BUT MY MIND IS GOING A HUNDRED MILES A MINUTE.I HAD ALOT OF RUNNING...