lonelyinNY

Hard to believe that four years ago at this very minute I was all alone ,trapped in my vehicle in freezeing cold water wondering if I was gonna live...Its 4:46 am & I havent been to bed yet....My...

Funny i just noticed that it has been exactly a month since I last wrote in my journal.I guess thats how long I let my deppression build up before I just cant keep it bottled up anymore.Every day...

WELL, I AM EXHAUSTED .I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN WITH BACK,HIP AND LEG PROBLEMS.THE KIDS ARE HOME SICK WITH THE FLU AND I AM HOPEING NOT THE SWINE FLU.MY 16 YEAR OLD WAS HOME FOR TWO DAYS WITH ACHES AND...

wELL TO THE PET LOVERS EVERYWHERE WHO THINK I AM A BAD PERSON AND THE IGNORANT WOMAN WHO TOLD ME IF I CANT AFFORD MY PETS I SHOULDNT HAVE THEM ...FUCK YOU BECAUSE YOU DONT KNOW ME OR HAVE ANY IDEA...

WELL, FINALLY A DAY WORTH MENTIONING...I HAVE BEEN SO DOWN ABOUT NOT HAVEING THE MONEY TO DO ANYTHING WITH MY FAMILY ANYMORE  AND TODAY I ACUALLY FELT LIKE A PERSON AGAIN..I TOOK MY TWO YOUNGEST TO...

ITS BEEN A LONG DEPPRESSING WEEKEND.I HAVE BEEN SICK WITH THE FLU ALL WEEKEND.I TOOK COLD PILLS EVERY FOUR HOURS ,DRANK LOTS OF LIQUIDS AND WATCHED VIDEOS..BUT I STILL FEEL LIKE SOMEONE IS SITTING ON...

WELL, I GUESS NO HAPPY JOURNALS FOR ME YET BUT MY HEAD IS POUNDING FROM TRYING TO KEEP ALL MY THOUGHTS BOTTLED UP, SO GLAD TO HAVE THIS JOURNAL OUTLET....ASSHOLE HAS BEEN PLAYING GAMES WITH ME...

WELL, I HAVE A HUNDRED AND ONE THINGS TO DO AND HERE I STILL SET. I JUST CANT GET MOTIVATED......MY HUSBAND HAS BEEN GONE FOR THE PAST TWO DAYS DRINKING AT HIS SISTERS EVER SINCE HIS STEP DAD PASSED...

WELL, I AM PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALY EXHAUSTED ,NOT TO MENTION I JUST WROTE A JOURNAL ENTRY AND IT ALL ERASED.SO THIS WILL BE A SHORT VERSION OF WHAT I JUST WROTE.WEDNESDAY MORNING AT 1;00AM MY...

WELL,ITS JUST ANOTHER DAY AT HOME...AS I LOOK AROUND THE HOUSE I TS A DISTASTER AGAIN.IT SEEMS ALLS I DO IS CLEAN AND CLEAN SOME MORE ONLY TO HAVE IT A MESS A FEW HOURS LATER.I GUESS WITH A HOUSEHOLD...

WELL AS A POPULAR BAND ONCE QUOTED (HERE I GO AGAIN)....I HAVE BEEN SO LONELY AND DEPRESSED OFF IN MY OWN LITTLE HELL I HAVENT BEEN WRITEING IN MY JOURNAL OR BEEN ONLINE MUCH.THINGS HAVE NOT CHANGED...

WELL EVERYDAY I HOPE MY JOURNAL WOULD GET A LITTLE HAPPIER BUT I GUESS ITS JUST NOT MY TURN TO BE IN A GOOD MOOD..I AM STRESSING SO MUCH ON DREAMING AND WANTING A NEW BEGINNING FILLED WITH...

WELL, I AM VERY EXHAUSTED BUT DECIDED TO CATCH UP ON MY JOURNAL..MY DAUGHTER HAD HER SURGERY ON MONDAY AND FINALLY TODAY IS FEELING A LITTLE BETTER.SHE STILL HAS ALOT OF SWELLING AND SOME PAIN ,IF...

WELL, I HAD TO HAVE KNOWN THE CALM AND PEACEFUL FEELINGS WERE NOT GONNA LAST,THEY NEVER DO. I WAS ACUALLY DOING PRETTY GOOD .GETTING THINGS DONE AROUND THE HOUSE AND WATCHING MY NEVER ENDING...