SO TIRED...
SO VERY TIRED OF HIS EVERYDAY DRINKING...JUST WHEN I THINK I HAVE THINGS UNDER CONTROL,HE COMES HOME WORSE..I CANT TAKE THE VERBAL ABUSE AND NEVER KNOWING HOW SEVERE ITS GONNA GET..PHYSICAL ABUSE IN THE PAST AND IS ONLY A STEP AWAY.. HE KEEPS THREATENING TO BREAK THE COMPUTER,SINCE HE KNOWS ITS MY ONLY LINK LEFT TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD...WHO HAVE I BECOME???? A YEAR AGO I WOULD HAVE STUCK UP FOR MYSELF, NOW I DONT EVEN NO WHO I AM....I NEED HELP BUT I AM REALISTIC AND KNOW THAT IS NOT AN EASY TASK.BEEN THERE DONE THAT....IT WOULD BE SO MUCH EASIER TO LEAVE IF I WAST RESPONCIBLE FOR FOUR KIDS AND A HOUSE FULL OF PETS... SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE BACK UP,THAT WOULD BE NICE...NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT,NOTHING TO FIX..
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i am so sorry that you are going throw all this...no one should have to be in your situation..you deserve better. hugs
Don\'t you let him break you down! I left my husband with 4 kids and I swear to you it was the best move I\'ve ever made. I was never happier than when it was just me and my babies. He tried to make me insecure and told me how nobody would want a woman with 4 kids. Blah blah blah. He was wrong. I\'m married to my dream guy (10 years) and that poor fool loves me and all my chidldren. It took all my crappy experiences to know what I had in him and I know you will find that to. My guy is not always perfect but then again, neither am I .
You are better than that shit you are married to and if he abususes you in any way then you need to sew him to the bed and knock the shit outa him. (saw that on a life time movie once) I\'m just trying to make you smile.
You have four wonderful children who will always love you and you will never be alone. Your fucker of a husband will reap what he sows and you just let him.
I know that you are better then your situation. You are a blessing. Hugs.
So sorry for this situation you are in. You deserve so much more. I hope you can find the strength to get out of that envirerment. You must think of your kids. You don\'t want them growing up and becomeing that kind of a person. Do you have any women shelters in your area tthat could help you??? Be strong & I hope that things will change for the better for you...Hugs, Connie
Everyone before me said pretty much everything I could say! You are worth more than what you\'re getting from this guy. Your kids deserve better, too. You are going through a rough period and - G-d forbid, even if you didn\'t have your computer for a while - you have to remember that there are a lot of people here who are supportive of you and care about you. When dealing with him, think of all of us right behind you looking at him with threatening looks and fists raised and ready!!! {{{{{BIG HUGS}}}}} Ilene Rachel