AmyM2014

So I made the mistake of looking at his facebook page.  Smack Me Over The head again.And I see he is at a waterpark down here with this woman who is chasing him and that she is at his gigs down here...

I am so damn angry right now I could spit nails, as his lies have finally surfaced.OMG it is hard to take the high road.   

And I will pay for it, but I Had to say what I had to say. One of his best female pals and I talked online yesterday and that set me off.She and I are fine, I guess.  Not overly invested in that...

I hit the motherload today. The stuff hit the pavement.I unfriended a woman who I truly adore (on facebook) months ago because he told me she was trying to get into his pants.  That was a lie.The...

I made myself another amazing dinner.  Talked to two good friends on the phone.I don't want to have a beer or a cigarette.  I want to just read and write and sleep like a normal person.I am getting...

Mired a bit in the muck again, just for a bit.  I am journaling here so I don't blow it all over anyone else.  I was thinking about the good memories he and I had...and we had some good ones.Our...

I have to laugh at how ridiculous this situation is. I still have a key to his car on my key ring.  I could get mad in the middle of the night and go move it and mess him all up.  (Not something I...

I have to say it is good to get to the root of some of what I have been doing wrong in dealing with the demise of this relationship.  I know this is totally normal and part of the process.Trouble is...

I have been through a lot of stuff in my life, as have we all.I have been thinking about the work I have done and I Can Do Anything:I began taking care of babies/children when I was 10 years old.  I...

I have been thinking more, of course. I am too trusting. I am naive, even at 54.  And as my father told me, I have bedroom eyes.  And I am gullible.I got myself into a world of crap when I was...

I knew today would be a bit of a challenge, coming off a birthday that was lovely in many ways, if lonely in others.  And the ex was here today for a few hours fixing a broken door for me.  That...

I am grateful for a huge outpouring of love and birthday wishes to me today, and I value every call and card and facebook message,but this is the first time I have ever spent my my birthday totally...

I have a lot of positive thoughts that show up in the midst of the dark thoughts.One thing I can't get the hang of all the time is this:"My mental attention is focused on ME".If I could get that one...

Pretty sure that is where I am at.  All I want to do is sleep.  I don't really want to talk to anyone.I am having to force myself to eat or leave the house.I am eating right now and I hope that...

I got wind that my brother's exwife  was moving a long way away.  I have known her and her family since I was very young.  Since my brother and her split she and I have kept in some contact with...