sassiesoftail

As I face the daily struggle of my constantly changing realeity. I have to ponder the past. My friend stated that Tim would not have survived losing me because I was the stronger one. Everyone seems...

I know I can't give this to him right now because I need a place to live. I have landed a great job and hopefully my living situation will change soon. I need closure and he refuses to give it to me....

Well I met with my friend last night. We went to see a local band. He was already inside when I got there so it was to loud to talk. We would share a few words when we could. Towards the end of the...

I tried to move on and it wasn't a success.  I feel terrible that I have pulled an innocent into my black vaccum.  I am not sleeping well, not that I have for a long time.  My dreams are filled...

I have not been one to attend church regularly.  My late Grandfather was a minister and stressed that Church is just a building not neccesary to worship God.  This is my 3rd year and I am losing my...

It was 2 years ago today I last heard your voice. Oh how I miss it, your laughter was contagious, and how I love laughing. I now try to find humor in everything, laughing is so healing. I am in a...

38 years ago 8/13 I married Tim I really did not know him very well but as the years passed he became my best friend. 2 years ago the lord made him an Angel. There isn't a day that goes by that I...

I broke our crockpot, it was a wedding gift so we've had it for 37 years.  I went to Bed, Bath & Beyond and believe it or not they had one like it on display.  They said I would have to order it....

I contracted and have struggled with Graves Disease for 25 years.  It was a struggle the first 6 or so years trying to get the medication right after I had a radioactive treatment.  I faithfully...

My dear Tim tomorrow is your heavenly birthday, but I feel today is more important.  Today was the lst day I saw you alive.  I miss you more than I ever thought possible. It's strange what...

You don't visit me in my dreams, maybe 3 times in the last year that I remember.    But you did visit me last night and I remembered it.I was driving around a small town in a Jeep.  There was a...

Today would have been our 37th wedding anniversary.  I wasn't sure how today was going to go.  I came to work and have had a couple of break downs.  I did not want to sit at home alone and wallow...

Been battling sorrow for awhile now.  Really in a horrid funk.  Crying all the time.  Kept busy this weekend around the house.  Groomed both dogs, that took several hours.  Took the dogs for a...

I had a friend from CA invite me to visit her in August.  Lynyrd Skynyd was playing at a Casino near Fresno and she was going to get us tickets for the concert.  We were going to be there around My...

I can't lift myself out of this funk.  I couldn't stop thinking last night about the 1 year mark.  It seems everyone touches on it but I don't know what it means.  Am I done?  Does it magically...