Saturday Dec27, 2018 7.30 am

Well, woke up at 5 am again, but now i can make a journal. So much has happened sence i was last on here. I was very sick for over a yr now i am physicly better but not mentally. That has gotten worse. I'm on so much med's and i sleep alot. Lost weight, gained weight, things that used to make me happy, not so much anymoore, kinda like a shut in now and that's bad. i get so shy i can't even type out how i feel. I have so many prob's and hoping threw helping others in there time of need that will help them and i. Does that sound selfish, i didn't mean it to b. Hugs to all