alantm
Status: just lost ...looked a lot..and no paths ..im lost
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bad dreams last nightdreamt i was at some kind of therapy group buti spent all of my time in a corner or hidding be hind furniture ectrocking myself and upsetand i would not come out to join ini felt...
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working my self a hell of a lottrying to solve very hard trial and erorr thingsyes im doing things but i have no idea whyand its all proto type workim not getting paid to destroy myslef
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i have nothing cleaver or smart to write things are quite fucked uphow on earth it will get better i have no ideathe older i get the more i know it wont
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Hello Mat,It sounds as though you are having a very difficult time at the moment. You say that you want to pass out and not be here anymore, does that mean that you want to die or for your situation...
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i feel bad already.i hoped id wake more up
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im having awful feelings that are not even directed anymorei guess it could be discribed as painfull in the way it drains the life out of meand motivationtoday i found myself back in bed away from...
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very very bad dayawfull awfull feelingsthat drove me back to my bedeverything is to hard to cope with
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i know its a sick poster ...but ,,its a question everyone asks themself after for yearshttp://trollcats.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/10/its_not_child_abuse_unless_they_beg_you_to_stop_trollcat.jpg
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having a bad time im feeling very very deadgiven up on everythingseems nimpossible to live with any feeling of motivationfor anything it is all for no reason at allfight backwhywhat for im getting...
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read some of my diary 2002 -2003maybe i had more to say back theni typed lotsnow i get sick of hearing myself yes things are odd nowand i do have self harm images quite strongto fight this...
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scary thought is im still here from 2008im still writing to a page i joined on a day i wanted to kill myself2 yearsi still get flash images of cut yourself.i dont know why that makes any sence at...
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today we splitits over after everything.i really dont get any of the way life goesit really is like some crazy game where im a ball in pin ballback to alone
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dont post here much anymorebecause im blank to everythingthe way i act is a lot like depression buti dont feel anything,i have accepted that it is all out of my controland people around me dont see...
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did sound at 2 funerals todayfor a 16 year old girl that hung her selfand an 18 year old that killed herself with drugsall this death is just confusing me to what im living for
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i can hardsly type.i am so drunk here woke alonebevcause i am
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