wanttobeok
Status: Just wanted to say things really can be okay.
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I dont really know what to write, other than, i am falling into old habits, more in my thinking than my actions right now, but fighting is getting harder ad harder and i am so scared that soon i will...
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Its not easy and i dont know if it ever will be. some day are easier than others, but i can live now. i can have fun, i know my eating disorder is there but if i know that then i can keep it at bay....
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its taking over, making me feel so crappy! i cant make it go away!
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Hey!I havent been here for ages and i miss it so much. We still dont have internet at our flat, although we should soon. I have continued having 3 healthy meals a day, it has been nine weeks now i...
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I will stay strong. i think yesterday was possily the most difficult day so far! that voice was just screaming at me. i hate it so much. i completely hate ed! so i will beat it!! yesterday it was...
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Well on wednesday i made it to 10 days of having 3 healthy meals a day. And i am still going. io am hoping that as time goes on it will get easier and become more routine. when i write about it on...
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I am not going to be going home on wednesday now. i will be staying in london because i went to an audition on sunday and i got the lead female role, so i have to get my script tonight and start...
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Staying strong! i will do this, i am so determined. i am not gunna let this stupid disease steal anymore of my life away, i want to live not just exist. I wont be back online till wednesday,...
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Three days! the food is still really hurting my stomach! but i am going to win! i will keep going! i will stay strong!
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I did it! haha :-P to that stupid voice screaming at me not to eat! i ate 3 healthy meals! It really hurt my stomach at lunch, but i know it will get easier, and i will be able to eat more without it...
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I can do it, i know i can, i can be healthy, i will do it, i will be healthy, i am going to live life, i can, i will, i am........ Not quite sure how, i'm so scared and confused, pros and cons just...
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I am just a complete mess right now, i dont know how to pull myself back, i dont think i can. i walked around for hours earlier, i wanted to burn calories and i needed space to think, i didnt find...
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I'm writing now as a distraction, it took me so long to get some food in me and reduced me to tears and now that is over all i wanna do is bring it back up, i feel horrible, guilty, fat, worthless,...
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