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Same day, another journal entry cuz i dont know what else to do with myself right now. i feel everything crashing down, i dont want to lose thi battle but i dont know how to fight right now, here at...
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what more can i say other than the title!?! ahhhh! bad day! i am praying that can get back on track tomorrow...today old feelings have led to old behaviours, i just hope tomorrow i will go back to...
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My mum and i have barely ever spoken about my anorexia, instead literally saying the minimum amount possible when i went into treatment. But after 4 years we finally spoke the truth about it. It...
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I feel like i have been making giant steps towards recovery recently, i have now tackled every food that i wouldnt eat, i have been slowly working on eating all the foods my ed stopped me from eating...
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I know this could possibly sound stupid or something, but i like to write honestly about how i feel here.... i feel like i have changed and am changing, i am listening to a song i used to listen to...
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I realised today i always beat myself up for not being able to do this and that, like not being able to stop calorie counting and such, then i realised there are lots of things i can do that i once...
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If you put your mind to something enough then you can do it, i know i can do this and wave goodbye to it. There are people in the world suffering so much more than i am and are powerless to help...
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I am so fed up with feeling guilty. I wish i could not count calories because if i didn't know how many i was eating then maybe the guilt would be easier, but i cant not count cuz then i panic that i...
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I have been challenging myself so much recently, it is difficult and scary and has been making that ana voice scream loudly at me telling me i am eating "too" much, i shouldnt eat this and that, i...
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I am still staying strong, i dont want to give in! I am eating the most healthy diet i have in at least four years. I know i still have a long way to go and a lot of fighting to do but i am staying...
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i am feeling quite strong and happy right now, i m hoping i can keep this feeling, i feel quite full of fighting spirit. i have managed to up my intake to a very acceptable amount for the last 8...
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i have eaten really well today despite finding it difficult, i should feel proud of myself, but instead i feel guilty and like i should make up for it tomorrow by not eating enough. ed does my head...
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i just cant eat enough, therefore i cannot be healthy and achieve my goal.
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I just don't want to eat, i am eating properly cuz i know i have to, but the thoughts are so strong in my head and its making me feel so low, i'd give anything to not have to eat, for eating just not...
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Its been four years of toutureand its beenfour years of painits been four years of heaven and four years of rain. You tempted me with pretty imagestold me what to doI obeyed your every wordnow i...
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