I can do it, i know i can, i can be healthy, i will do it, i will be healthy, i am going to live life, i can, i will, i am........ Not quite sure how, i'm so scared and confused, pros and cons just go back and forth in my mind constantly. I once managed to do ok for around 2-3 months and that was the happiest i remember being in longer than i can remember, i wish that time hadnt ended, i want to get it back.