wanttobeok
Status: Just wanted to say things really can be okay.
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I am not going to be going home on wednesday now. i will be staying in london because i went to an audition on sunday and i got the lead female role, so i have to get my script tonight and start...
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Staying strong! i will do this, i am so determined. i am not gunna let this stupid disease steal anymore of my life away, i want to live not just exist. I wont be back online till wednesday,...
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Three days! the food is still really hurting my stomach! but i am going to win! i will keep going! i will stay strong!
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I did it! haha :-P to that stupid voice screaming at me not to eat! i ate 3 healthy meals! It really hurt my stomach at lunch, but i know it will get easier, and i will be able to eat more without it...
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I can do it, i know i can, i can be healthy, i will do it, i will be healthy, i am going to live life, i can, i will, i am........ Not quite sure how, i'm so scared and confused, pros and cons just...
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I am just a complete mess right now, i dont know how to pull myself back, i dont think i can. i walked around for hours earlier, i wanted to burn calories and i needed space to think, i didnt find...
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I'm writing now as a distraction, it took me so long to get some food in me and reduced me to tears and now that is over all i wanna do is bring it back up, i feel horrible, guilty, fat, worthless,...
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I wish my heart and chest would feel better, i dont think it will until i get back on track with eating, i am feeling a bit better mentally but still cant go against the rules in my head...ahhhh im...
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I dont know the person i see Lost in the mirror staying back at meGlimpses of who i wasHanging in the shadows I need to find who i am when the anoreixa label is taken away, i think i may be...
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So as it is the weekend i ended up in the emergancy room today, i followed advice of some people on here. the feeling i had/have was getting worse and i felt too physically weak to do anything. I...
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I am getting a bit scared at the moment. For the last few days i have had this weird feeling, it feels as though it is at the bottom of my heart, it kind of hurts and feels like it is struggling to...
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I'm alone. i dont want to be, but i know if i wasnt i would want to be. It makes no sense i know, but my mind is in a constant state of confusion...
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All i do is go around in circles, and the second it seems like things could have taken a step forward they muck up again and i continue to go around in circles. I keep tyring cuz there is nothing...
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i find it hard to believe that it'll ever be gone, that it will ever be ok, i am losing the strength to try, but yet i keep trying because there is nothing else i can do but try, but every time the...
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