leave me alone please i cant take it anymore
Same day, another journal entry cuz i dont know what else to do with myself right now. i feel everything crashing down, i dont want to lose thi battle but i dont know how to fight right now, here at home, some how its different, i feel so helpless, i dont feel like i can win here because ed has control of me, i dont want to go to bed right now (its 23:50 here) because i am scared of waking up to the same fight tomorrow. I HATE THIS!! Why does it have to be like this? im powerless.
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Dear Want,
One of the symptoms of having a addictive personality is the fact that we look for things outside ourselves that we can control. What we eat, drink, smoke. That is the first clue.
A trick I have found that helps is to only allow myself to worry about things that I can some affect upon and the heck with what I can\'t control. This sounds easier than one would think but it is not. If you can\'t control the outcome of a situation, then do not allow yourself to worry about it. No amount of worry will change the outcome anyways. Make a list of what you can control and how you plan to go about it and then try sleeping. This helps me. Eric