I won't call myself a failure...I am a human. I messed up on saturday and let him drag me back into the madness. Started with him "accidentally" calling me twice and I fell for it and responded. Got myself back on track Sunday and talked to ALOT of healthy, supportive people. I talked to my mom at great length. She endured an abusive father as a child and told me she almost immediately felt uneasy about my ex. She also told me that my son used to go to her and talk about how he might be able to kill my ex because he was so afraid he would hurt me. The biggest wakeup call I have ever had. I am heartbroken that my child lived that way and I allowed it. Chills me tto the very core.