StephanieJune6

I don't know where else to go...I just miss Aaron so much. Not just him, the person. I miss having a partner in this life. Someone to share the good AND the bad. I had a really big win at work and it...

Everyday, it seems I have a memory or set of memories that I focus on specifically.  The mood of the memories color my day.  This morning, as I was waking up, I was remembering how I ran late to...

I have realized how grief is impacting my job performance. It's not my work situation, it is ME.  I feel behind. It's one thing after another and deadlines passing me by so quickly. As an orchestra...

So Aaron has been gone from this earth for six months and on the 26th, it will be 7 months.  I have not lived in my home this WHOLE time.  I have lived with my parents.  They take my boys to and...

Yesterday, Easter Sunday, would have been Aaron's 40th birthday.  Since it was Easter, I was busy trying to make it special for the kids with Easter time activities.  I felt stressed, overwhelmed...

Dear Aaron,I finally found a t-shirt worn by you, not washed so that it still smells like you.  I know that sounds weird but its something I'd been questing for since that day.  Since you were...

It was a day during my Spring Break.  Since I'm a teacher, I get a week off during the Spring, in March.  Its usually the third week but they moved it up because of standardized testing...

I play the viola in a string quartet.  When I got hired to play for this wedding, I agreed because I like the women in my quartet and didn't want to turn them down when they asked me.  On this...

For the passed few days, I've been feeling really haunted by my husband's death. I keep thinking about how he decided to do this...what was going through his mind before he hung himself and the...

It has now been four months since my husband died.  It still does NOT feel real.  I kept replaying what the police officer said to me, "He DID hang himself, he IS dead.  I cut him down, tried to...

My work day is over and I now dread the quiet times where the reality punches me very hard in the face....that Aaron is gone.  I go through my days, living from moment to moment.  Glad when I've...

When we met in 2000, I had just finished a one year stint of playing guitar in an all girl punk rock band.  At the time I was majoring in music with my violin being my main instrument.  Aaron went...

I don't know what I'm doing.  I'm staying with my parents but I feel like a burden on them.  They are helping me with my kids, which I feel like I need since I have a baby under a year old and an...

Today, I had to put on a presentation for 5th graders so that they can hopefully sign up for orchestra when they go to Middle School.  My orchestra had to sound good and I had to sound excited....

I am really feeling so much more pain than I was before.  The reality of his absence in my life is so horrible that it just makes me feel sick all over.  I was remembering going to a drive thru at...