I don't know what I'm doing. I'm staying with my parents but I feel like a burden on them. They are helping me with my kids, which I feel like I need since I have a baby under a year old and an autistic child. But I can't help but ask myself: "Can I do this on my own?" I don't know where to go and I feel like I'm wearing thin on my parents. My oldest son, is now really acting out with me and is disobedient. I feel like I just want to move out of here...I'm unable to return home so I have nowhere.
Wish the kids and I didn't want to avoid the house so much, so I could stop feeling so lost and confused.
Wish the kids and I didn't want to avoid the house so much, so I could stop feeling so lost and confused.
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Sorry. Can\'t imagine what is like with two. I only have one and it\'s hard! She\'s great most of the time and the misbehaving is what any 4 year old would be doing but having to be both the fun parent and disciplinarian isn\'t easy. And it wears on you. Hope things get better for you.
Sorry you have all of this on top of grieving. I know if I were your father, no matter how different life may be with all of the grandchildren there, the last thing I would want is my grieving daughter to be feeling like a burden. You might want to tell them how you feel, and I think they may surprise you by how much they are committed to helping you through this toughest test of anyone\'s lifetime. You might try talking to your oldest, and telling him how much you need his help to watch over his brother, and to help you. That may give him a way to feel needed and important, and bring him closer to you. So hard to know what is best with the house. If you want to try living there, you may want to ask family and friends about ideas to completely re-arrange the interior. With their help to complete the project, you may feel better about being there. Hope you find the answers you need, and the healing and peace you deserve. Prayers and hugs to you all:
Robert
Thanks jrp32079 and Robert :) I guess its just hard to adjust to life now, where I need more help than I used to. I\'m needing my parents more than ever. Its unsettling to not be an independent person like I was before. This loss of Aaron has been traumatic and life changing. Don\'t know exactly what I\'m doing. But I am waiting on the Lord and praying. Thanks