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- So we had Mother's Celebration of Life on Sat. and it went very well... very big crowd, lots of loving comments from friends, very nice statement of Mother's volunteer work at the hospital and then charming, funny comments from the director of Fort...
- I wanted to let you all know that Mother passed away last night... sometime after I went upstairs at about 11 p.m. By then her oxygen was dropping low and her pulse was racing and irregular. I should have known and rather wish I had stayed by her...
- I am having some serious qualms about the amount of drugs I'm instructed by hospice to give my mom, to "keep her comfortable." And she is, of course, as much as is possible in going through what she is. But she's basically unconscious all the time....
- Just went through my mom's scrapbook of her trip to visit me in Hawaii in 1968... OMG!! What a walk down memory lane. How absolutely wonderful. She kept such detailed delightful notes! And how I deeply regret not getting to this project while she...
- What a screwup today. Mother is mentally and physically so out of it and has been taking in SO little liquid for the past 24--36 hours, never could I have imagined that she could pee through the padded brief and thru the absorbent pad and onto the...
- Just gave Mother her first "straight' dose of morphine today and it was fantastic!!! (Hospice has provided it as part of our "emergency" kit. And they recommended it during yesterday's worst moments.) We've used it in the Nebulizer for breathing...
- I guess the headline says it all... could go into detail but believe me, you wouldn't want to read it all. What a day! Hospice said give her Lorazapam (sp?) to calm her... and if one didn't work in 1/2 hr, give another. Just now did give the 2nd...
- Mom has spent almost all day sleeping, seems she can hardly keep her eyes open at all, and when she tries to she looks so spacey. When I took her to the potty awhile ago, she tried to sit back down on the wheelchair to pee instead of turning around...
- Just had a major "drama scene" with Mother re having to undress and shower with the (female) helper/volunteer from hospice, Veronica. Like 20 minutes we went on with me patiently explaining that she CANNOT safely do it alone (gees, she can barely...
- Last night when we finally got upstairs to our own space, I just fell into a complete hysterical crying jag (poor DH) about how horrible all this is for my mom. Incontinence, pain, pain, pain, heart failure and the slow death that means (like...
- A wonderful volunteer program, Texas Ramps, is here today building a wheelchair ramp for Mother - all for FREE! (However, we did make a good size contribution to the program.) But if you have a friend or relative in Texas who needs such a ramp, go...
- Mother is home. That's the good news. But it's terribly hard... that's the bad news. She's still in denial and that makes many things harder. I don't even really know how to describe what I'm talking about... partly cause I am just SO SO tired....
- As we approach the time in a couple of weeks when my mom will likely come home from rehab, we are facing just so many issues, so many decisions. Very tough. Do we assume she can get up and down the stairs (all outside entrances have stairs) with her...
- Today I got the call that my mom got OK'd for hospice care here at home. Having her home is what we - and she! - have wanted but when I see how weak she still is there in rehab, I get scared and nervous thinking of having her here with us so totally...
- Words can hardly describe my exhaustion since moving Mother to the new facility. SO many problems!! How can they have a 5 star rating on Medicare.gov?? I'm just wiped out... as is my poor Mother. But she did have a good PT session today, which I...