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That's all I got to say. Friday night. You leave. I don't hear from you the entire 3 hour trip to Chicago, even though I was up. Just a 50 second call when you go there? Sure you were tired.. ok...

I do have some anger, but mostly I feel sad. I'm scared about what lies ahead. He's a different person, and he has gone down a really dark hole and cannot see clearly, it's starkly clear. I've been...

What is feeling good and what needs to change?nothing feels good.What gives me hope?He came down and covered me, didn't force. What do I worry about?He walked away, he never checked on me, he...

You're pissed at a lot of things right now. You have to process those and go through them, I'm not sure what my role is in it. You hate me, you want me, you love me, you resent me, all in the same...

If he has agreed to the requirements and said what he needed to say (not what he said that he purposely knew what I needed and refused because of Evernote and he was too angry). Expect walking on...

He mayminimize his behavior; blame me or others; work on sympathies/ expect automatic amnesty;quietly refuse to honor some of the requirements; get angry and accuse me of trying to control him;...

This is what I know.I have been lied to, manipulated, controlled, and treated in a way that made me feel worthless for my entire life, and throughout our entire relationship. I know you continue to...

Please don't react poorly to this. Can you take a step back, when you're by yourself, not answering to anyone, and consider this and then we can talk about it, and the possibility of involving me...

I don't believe that you didn't contact her to talk about getting back together. You admitted it, and then way late in the game you said something else. It was also in a defensive situation. I don't...

I'm not that expectation. I'm not 1%. I'm in a cabin, camping. I'm smelling plants and growing ones that you can eat the leaves. I'm a neighborhood, a community, I'm not hiding in my huge house. I'm...

This is worse than porn. And then you see nothing wrong, just like porn. Have you gone over there to have sex? Is she laughing at me behind my back? Sure get Martin to buddy up and support you...

When I needed a break, space, I told the truth, I told him what I knew and kept him updated. Apparently I don't even rank that without pulling it out of him. The online access, yeah, still? you just...

You do realize you, and your refusal to really accept me and let me in, and your emotional distance and hurting me is at least half of those dark times? The other being the rest of the world. The...

I wanted to fix the relationship, he didn't want that. When I insisted he flew off the handle. When I held onto making it real and making a real recovery, he ignored it. He wanted a quick...

every where I look is another example of me making his fucking life easier, catering to him, destroying myself for him, doing stuff for him. There is the smell of garlic on my hands from a dinner I...