Loss

I'm not that expectation. I'm not 1%. I'm in a cabin, camping. I'm smelling plants and growing ones that you can eat the leaves. I'm a neighborhood, a community, I'm not hiding in my huge house. I'm red neck finding solutions, not buying my way out. Debt bothers me and so does overspending. I like being in the woods, near water. I like saying and singing what comes to my head, those are a few peaceful moments. I need to matter. I like being surrounded by nature and beauty. I like warmth and touch. I have not felt relaxed in so long, there is no rest, no beauty.