Sammantha71

As I sit in my bedroom on Father's day listening to the tv. I get upset and miss my husband more and more. I was listening to my roomate skype with her family and she said that she can't listen to...

Today, a friend of mine and my husbands stopped by to check on me. He is looking after me because my husband is gone. I guess I am just missing my husband alot. Have to see his brother next weekend...

Is it wrong for me not to cry much anymore? I miss my husband he was my world and now I just mainly stay on the computer or I go out with my dogs or my roomates. Yeah, sometimes I feel like a third...

I was doing pretty good driving around and I heard a song that just filled my head with memmories of my husband. The song was called Wind of change. That song made me cry I did regain composer and...

While I was married I always had my husband to take care of my fears. Now, that he is gone I only have one person to take care of my fears and that is me. My mom, once told me always face your fears...

Is it wrong to take my time on getting rid of my husbands clothes? My mom told me that I should take his name off of the bank account I told her I was not ready for that because it would be admitting...

I am at the point if someone tries to piss me off I will scream at them when I know most of my anger should be at my husband for leaving me. I woke up this afternoon and I could not put pressure on...

Part of me misses my husband and yes I wish somedays I wish I went with him but I did not. I am here to raise my dogs and do whatever. I don't know yet. I did set up small goals for myself and I have...

Today was my birthday. The first important day and my husband was not there to celebrate with me. I have lied to people so they do not worry about me. All I want is to be left to just take care of my...

Tomorrow is my birthday. My late husband and I used to celebrate together. This will be my first birthday without him. I did cry today for a little while cause I know he will not be here. I hope I...

I don't know if I am mad or sad. I am mad because my husband is not with me anymore. Yes, I do have his ashes but I would rather have him here. I am sad because my birthday is on Monday and it will...

I got paid today, so my roomates and I did a little shopping things for the house and things for the animals. I was in target and saw this man playing with his kids and I almost started crying again....

Well today was pretty good one of my roomates has a job now. On the side lines I breed Siberian huskies. Our last litter was a surprise litter well the runt of the litter was the last one to sell...

I woke up today kind of sadbut I got out of bed to take care of my dogs. I was laying on the couch watching tv and my step daughter called she wanted to ask me about some things. I told her that I...

Tonight, I am just miserable and upset. I do not like this knew life I did not ask for this and it is not fair. I have become a liar I lie to my family and tell them I am fine and I lie my friends...