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- I know it is not much of an achievement but it is to me.I came back home from Australia earlier this week and I am still suffering from jet lag so I was up at 3:30 am (London time) and looking at my iPad when my side lamp blew up. I thought I t was...
- My husband and I were married 42 years ago in Paris, on Christmas Eve. Last year I was too raw and too sorrowful to even notice the passing of our anniversary but this year, today, I have decided to celebrate it, quietly, but celebrate it...
- This was my second year without my husband. Second everything, birthday, Christmas, anniversary, etc. I agree with most people who found the second year tougher than the first one. I guess it is because during the first year I was on automatic...
- First, I wish you all a happy Easter.This is just an bit of a progress message. My husband died in February last year and I particularly remember my lonely, raw, unhappy Easter weekend, among all the fog which surrounded that period. Easter used to...
- Nearly a year on, I still find it difficult to cook just for me. I always buy family packs at the supermarket and yesterday I made a vegetable soup large enough to feed an army. Of course I had to freeze most of it in single portion size boxes. When...
- Just a rant today.Last night I was invited for a goodbye dinner by my SIL's parents. I am at present visiting my daughter for a few weeks in Sydney (Australia) and I will be returning home in a few days. During the meal someone mentioned that it was...
- I have been away from this site for a few weeks and I missed it. I have travelled to Australia to be with my daughter and her family. Somehow, even though I am happy to be reunited with them for a few weeks, being in a foreign land, in unfamiliar...
- Holding handsBeing helped into my coat Breakfast in bed on Sunday Having an arm to hold on toHaving someone to teaseSomeone helping me look for and find things I have misledSomeone to check my car Someone who says "I love you" for no reason at...
- Allie's life and mine run on parallel tracks. Yesterday, my father passed away. My brother called me early yesterday morning to tell me. His passing was expected because he had been very ill for three years now but was deteriorating fast in the last...
- Today, I was shifting some furniture around, unpacking some boxes and I had to look for some screws in my husband's tool box, then bang the wall to fix some picture. Crying all the time.I sat myself down to analyse whether I was crying because I...
- Because of my move, I have been "internetless" for over 2 weeks. I am back online now but it made me realise how much I have relied on your support over the last few months. During these last two weeks, I sneaked a glance at DS when I visited some...
- Something lighter before the weekend ahead, weekends which are for many of us a difficult and lonely time of the week. Cooking and food have appeared on this site many times. Food is an emotional subject for all of us.My husband always said my...
- Today, I need a bit of a grumble. I need to fill in a lot official forms. My first grumble is why as women do we have to choose between 3 status: Miss, Mrs, Ms. Of course I choose Mrs, then the second question is : single or married as on some forms...
- I wonder if this is normal. Since my husband died I feel so vulnerable being totally on my own that I elaborate contingency plans for every eventuality. The days of my "happy go lucky" attitude are long gone. I am sensible enough to realise that it...
- I find I have to make constant efforts to just keep afloat. Efforts to get up in the morning because there is no one to say good morning to and no one to make my coffee for me ever.Efforts to make myself presentable even if no one will appreciate...