I'm 3 and half months on since I lost my boyfriend. I miss a lot of the same things as you. Now I feel like I just took them for granted when he was here, I didnt think twice about reaching out to hold his hand or having a cuddle off him. It was just so normal and I thought I had many more years with him before I had to worry about potentially losing the opportunity to do those things. Telling him I loved him just fell off my lips so naturally, I miss being able to tell him that now and him telling me he loved me. I miss him laughing at me when I'd do or say something daft and him giving me a big hug whenever I felt down. I miss how he always made me feel better no matter what. I miss everything about him so much and I miss the person I was when I was with him because I feel like I've lost a big part of me now.

I miss my silly conversations with Alex. All of our inside jokes that no one but us would laugh at. Cuddling is a big one for me too. I miss feeling loves. I hope this gets easier someday.

I, too, miss all of those things and more.... At the moment, I have something really, really important I need to talk to him about....and it can't be done in a prayer....I need a face to face....so, what do I do now? Nothing, I guess.... and that's what bugs me......He's the only one who would have the answer for me and it's not possible. That's the kind of stuff plus all the other things that are really getting to me at just over 3 months and 3 days..... DANGIT!

Today is 9 months for me also. Some days are ok but sometimes I still don't feel like I'm going to survive it.
I still feel lost.
This weekend I'm going out if town with some girlfriends. Looking forward to that.

I am at 39 days, I promised myself I will stop counting the dam days.
I miss yelling at him to feed the dogs. I miss talking to him about how the day was at work for both of us. I miss asking him if he locked the front door when we went to bed. I never thought I was the person who would take their own life, but sometimes it crosses my mind. Would anyone really care now that he is gone. The dogs and cat would miss me. I would be free from this pain. He would be mad at me though and that is what keeps me going

I haven't gotten past those "Missings" either. Gentle hugs
Jewell

Yesterday was 9 months for me. I thought I have been improving a little bit. But last night was so tough. I came home from work and pretty much fell apart all night alone. In as much pain as at the start. It feels like I am just going through the motions of life- without a purpose. I miss everything you mentioned- and everything else- on my own reality. I hope today is better - and hope I am not dealing with actual depression-something I have no experience with. Sorry, I try to keep a better attitude, but sometimes I don't make it.

I miss those t hings too -- the practical, tangible things that made a shared life so much easier than the one I lead now. And I miss the intangibles -- the enveloping feeling of being loved, accepted, understood, and protected.

He is the one who has always comforted me and made me feel safe; he is the one who could help me with the pain I feel now. Ironic, no?

DorothyJoan