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I think. (still gonna take it though because I'm really afraid of my unmedicated self right now) That and the "energy" vitamins, maybe. I stopped the caffeine at 4pm yesterday and didn't get to sleep until 4 or 5am today, I don't recall.
I started resorting to Valium out of desperation around 4pm yesterday and just kept at it and it didn't work,
Then around 2 or 3 this morning I started getting really paranoid and jumpy and my brain was becoming overwhelmed with morbid, weird stuff
Like those videos that show fast-forwarded footage or some stupid vague thing and then sneak a "jumper" image of Satan in there somewhere
So I went on a long rant about something, I don't even remember (today I'm told it was about food, oh.) and did a larger dose of valium with zofran and just vowed to lay still in the darkness until I passed out, WHICH I DID! I was honest with my mum and said that I'd need to probably be hospitalized (CSU/reg'lurr ER, didn't care) if I went another full 24 hours without sleep.
Also though before I passed out I happened to catch a glimpse of a bottle of my Melatonin gummies on the floor... Oh.
Probably could've slept a day sooner with those. Lol, oh well.
I just woke up. Thankfully I feel more sane.
The new season of Orange is the New Black is on Netflix today, but I'm too sleepy for it right now. I might wake myself up with a documentary.
I've watched most of the good ones. The other ones are pretty random, most of netflix's documentaries are about random subjects like agriculture and i dunno, animal stuff.
Last night I thought of something weird. I feel that all of the more "profound" fields of study are on land, philosophy, psychology, etc.
But even supposing I became a PhD in some research field and produced some majorly insightful answers to better humanity,
The Earth is still 70% water, so I'd still have done nothing for over two-thirds of this world. xD
Oh well. Lol.
Also I found out today that my best friend Caleb/Issy is in NY visiting his new girlfriend. I'm so excited for him, and I hope she takes very good care of my cute little bab. c:
I started resorting to Valium out of desperation around 4pm yesterday and just kept at it and it didn't work,
Then around 2 or 3 this morning I started getting really paranoid and jumpy and my brain was becoming overwhelmed with morbid, weird stuff
Like those videos that show fast-forwarded footage or some stupid vague thing and then sneak a "jumper" image of Satan in there somewhere
So I went on a long rant about something, I don't even remember (today I'm told it was about food, oh.) and did a larger dose of valium with zofran and just vowed to lay still in the darkness until I passed out, WHICH I DID! I was honest with my mum and said that I'd need to probably be hospitalized (CSU/reg'lurr ER, didn't care) if I went another full 24 hours without sleep.
Also though before I passed out I happened to catch a glimpse of a bottle of my Melatonin gummies on the floor... Oh.
Probably could've slept a day sooner with those. Lol, oh well.
I just woke up. Thankfully I feel more sane.
The new season of Orange is the New Black is on Netflix today, but I'm too sleepy for it right now. I might wake myself up with a documentary.
I've watched most of the good ones. The other ones are pretty random, most of netflix's documentaries are about random subjects like agriculture and i dunno, animal stuff.
Last night I thought of something weird. I feel that all of the more "profound" fields of study are on land, philosophy, psychology, etc.
But even supposing I became a PhD in some research field and produced some majorly insightful answers to better humanity,
The Earth is still 70% water, so I'd still have done nothing for over two-thirds of this world. xD
Oh well. Lol.
Also I found out today that my best friend Caleb/Issy is in NY visiting his new girlfriend. I'm so excited for him, and I hope she takes very good care of my cute little bab. c:
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Here is my new brother, copper :) He's so tiny! Moo and Tuck were ok with him on first meeting. Rocket due to his severe aggression will never meet Cooper.
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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTDeA9Wxg/
My pdoc at the time was a sadist and refused to take me off it and said I just have to get used to it. Mike lit into so bad I almost felt sorry for him....Almost, he was a douchbag